superconfessional

[iralex]

the thing is that they say they want me to not smoke, whatever I feel that, but I don't anywhere near as much as i used to, also I'm grounded forever and ever so where the fuck else am I supposed to smoke?

shit just sucks balls, I'm surprised I haven't been sent back to tuckers, (Tucker Psychiatric Clinic) which is like fucking hell on earth

[iralex]

yoo! have u seen garden state?

damn..

no, should I?

[gfunkdocta]

nah, it's lame. everything i say is sarcastic

cuz i'm snarky 3.0..and on something myself (not drugs tho)

plus ur livin it already..

get outta that man, effexor, seroquel, ativan, lithium

fuck all that.. remember the days u weren't on that? u can do it!1

[iralex]

being a minor and all, it isn't really my call. Shit sucks being only 16 and this bullshit has been going on for 2/3 years now. :c

[bouwnt]

yeah i'll be ur daddy

[iralex]

are you tall, really jewish, and rich?

[whitney]

I got kicked out of the house once cos my dad didn't know what else to do we were arguing and if he tried to lay a hand on me I'd call the cops..it was pretty crazy my teen years..I left and went to my friend's house

later when he cooled down plus my mom found out..she called me back home and we just sorta forgot about it/ignored it like we always do..

before I got sick and there was a possiblity of death my dad and I fought like cats and dogs..

[iralex]

ok, honestly i feel a lot better but still really shitty. thanks everyone!!!!!!

[neptunecitylocal]

being a minor and all, it isn't really my call. Shit sucks being only 16 and this bullshit has been going on for 2/3 years now. :c

don't complain about it, exploit it exploit it exploit it exploit it exploit it exploit it.

and don't beat yourself up over. seriously. you/i still have about another year of minor-ism.

patience is key.

[gfunkdocta]

have u tried NOT taking the pills?

and saving them, and selling them blackmarket in the washroom stalls

of ur highschool?

like that movie with the girl with the big tits?

[bouwnt]

are you tall, really jewish, and rich?

i am all of these , at least once per day, on separate occasions...

[neptunecitylocal]

have u tried NOT taking the pills?

and saving them, and selling them blackmarket in the washroom stalls

of ur highschool?

like that movie with the girl with the big tits?

come to my school. the people that buy are so fucking gullible. you could seriously pass off tylenol as thizz.

[iralex]

have u tried NOT taking the pills?

and saving them, and selling them blackmarket in the washroom stalls

of ur highschool?

like that movie with the girl with the big tits?

haha, been there, done that. the 50mg of adderall i'm on is nice, kind of over kill though.

i am all of these , at least once per day, on separate occasions...

k, i guess maybe

[iralex]

come to my school. the people that buy are so fucking gullible. you could seriously pass off tylenol as thizz.

oh, all the people at my school are just dumb preppy bitches that don't know shit so it's realll easy

[horriblyjollyjinx]

have u tried NOT taking the pills?

and saving them, and selling them blackmarket in the washroom stalls

of ur highschool?

like that movie with the girl with the big tits?

whats the song in your sig?

[branespload]

i'm thinking about learning to produce some hiphop beats or something. I really like instrumental hip hop and pressing buttons, but to be honest I have no real musical background.

Would it be too hard of a task to tackle? I'd settle for nothing too serious, just dabbling in it for fun. Right now that looks like something along the lines of FL Studio and an MPD24. Would I need anything else other than that?

And should I even go along with this? :|

[ProfMonnitoff]

^ yeah why not

[NatseOklim]

i'm thinking about learning to produce some hiphop beats or something. I really like instrumental hip hop and pressing buttons, but to be honest I have no real musical background.

Would it be too hard of a task to tackle? I'd settle for nothing too serious, just dabbling in it for fun. Right now that looks like something along the lines of FL Studio and an MPD24. Would I need anything else other than that?

And should I even go along with this? :|

Download Reason first and have a mess about.

[ProfMonnitoff]

i played around with reason for a bit and loved how it did some things but hated how it did others (hurrrrr you have to jump through a billion hoops if you want to do anything these 10 analog devices can't do). i tried to wire reason's output into ableton but just couldnt be bothered in the end.

[minou]

i am seriously freaking the fuck out cos my laptop crashed yet again (after 2 months of repair for the same damage). I'm graduating in less than 70 days and i have a presentation in 5 days, web page template to do in 4 days. 2 product renderings to do by 15 days and i have no fucking software on any of the computers at home for me to do all this shit! worst of all, all my files are still in my laptop. fuck this shit... i'm so fucking dead.

[Corbin Law]

quitting smoking blows.

my unconscious is fucked. combination of nictine deprived hate for everything and a relationship on the rocks: my dreams are getting really fucked up.

my only hope is that by quitting smoking and getting healthy my life will return to order.

[samsikle]

later when he cooled down plus my mom found out..she called me back home and we just sorta forgot about it/ignored it like we always do..

before I got sick and there was a possiblity of death my dad and I fought like cats and dogs..

this is seriously the asian way. i remember being younger once and my dad and i got into an argument but it was awkward and i remember thinking "we should talk this out." but then things went back to normal. i also used to be a tough cookie when i was younger. never stand down!

[gfunkdocta]

whats the song in your sig?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMFj0sWpIAI

song too trill they had to film in super widescreen..

[whitney]

this is seriously the asian way. i remember being younger once and my dad and i got into an argument but it was awkward and i remember thinking "we should talk this out." but then things went back to normal. i also used to be a tough cookie when i was younger. never stand down!

I remember trying to talk to my parents about arguments we'd get into but they would always avoid it or get angry again and we'd argue and get no where..I'm trained to just forget it and not talk about it

I don't think I ever heard my dad or mom apologize..

[samsikle]

I remember trying to talk to my parents about arguments we'd get into but they would always avoid it or get angry again and we'd argue and get no where..I'm trained to just forget it and not talk about it

I don't think I ever heard my dad or mom apologize..

yeah it sucks. i feel like thats a huge impediment between the relationship with my parents and i, our inability to "talk it out". i think now that im older, my mom and i are better at it. i just tip toe around my dad making sure to watch what i say. but if shit gets crazy i will not hesitate to start getting loud at my dad. don't get me wrong, i totally love my parents but when people are acting dumb you have to let them know.

[whitney]

definitely gets easier as you get older..it's been so long since the last argument I don't even remember what we used to argue about..

but it's still difficult to talk and I prefer not to rock the boat since he basically leaves me alone I do the same except every now and then we have a family outing/gathering

[landho]

I remember trying to talk to my parents about arguments we'd get into but they would always avoid it or get angry again and we'd argue and get no where..I'm trained to just forget it and not talk about it

I don't think I ever heard my dad or mom apologize..

yeah it sucks. i feel like thats a huge impediment between the relationship with my parents and i, our inability to "talk it out". i think now that im older, my mom and i are better at it. i just tip toe around my dad making sure to watch what i say. but if shit gets crazy i will not hesitate to start getting loud at my dad. don't get me wrong, i totally love my parents but when people are acting dumb you have to let them know.

I will say that Asian parents are that way too regarding love. Everything my parents have ever done, my mother especially, they have done with their children and the family in mind. Asians don't express their love verbally but instead through actions. It's easy to forget this sometimes because their gestures of love are not overt.

My sister got into a big argument with our parents about her upcoming wedding, and I think she was surprised when I generally sided with our parents. The wedding is still a long time off (maybe more than a year--she is recently engaged), so there is a lot of time for things to be resolved.

I am in general very respectful toward my parents and their wishes; my friends are always very surprised at the way I behave around my parents because I am normally very combative and forthright. Around my parents, however, I am deferential and polite. That said, my parents put up with a lot from me (I went to college on a full scholarship to study engineering and liberal arts but dropped out of school for a while to travel around the country and gamble, for example, throwing away my scholarship in the process), so it's definitely been an ongoing process for all of us. As I've gotten older, though, I've come to understand my parents' side even more. Not everything needs to be spoken, and some things are the way they are. Not everything needs a reason. If you don't agree with something your father says (and heaven knows I don't agree with everything my father says), there is no reason to always call him out on it; the world is wide enough for both cosmologies to exist.

But in general, I guess our parents became who they are for a reason. They're not stupid; and I think that a lot of the old ways (of filial piety, for example) have a lot to recommend them.

[julzkind]

landho <3

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[NatseOklim]

I've been using the excuse that I haven't really tried to promote myself to excuse my lack of freelance work. Xmas was my excuse for not promoting myself and after 2 weeks of jury duty starting monday, I have no excuses and I'm bricking it a little bit!

[Thorns]

I've always been intrigued by other people's parents. My parents hate kids (I inherited it) and consequently always treated me as an adult. They were more like older friends. If I got in trouble they would just make fun of me instead of like... punishment. I was certainly never grounded. I got arrested in high school and all my dad did was shake his head and call me a dumbass.

My older sister was more like a parent to me than my parents were.

I'd always ask why other kids would tolerate parental control. Things like curfews or no same sex sleepover rules were always foreign to me.

I guess you can all tell I'm not asian huh?