superconfessional

[Analog]

i think i just found a new vein in my khack.

You been workin' out?

[AstroWolf]

GOAT

i still question if you are the prick you think you are.

If you were, i question if it would bother you so much. When i was 25, i was near intolerable unless i loved you. I never thought twice about shit. So, i think at your core you must be OK, so, give yourself a break, or find friends that are not part of a 70's sitcom.

no?

[goat]

its odd

everybody that's known me for >5 years loves me for me

i have tonnnnnesss of friends that have gotten to the point where they expect me to make the sarcastic comments towards people

in the last 5 years, i've realized that most ppl i meet don't put up with the comments i make

the odd part is those are the people that are causing me to change, even though they're nowhere near as important when compared to my friends i've had for 20 years (who are actually against me not being an asshole)......so i've decided to try it.

me being an ass today was cause i straight up made a comment that was uncalled for to a girl i didn't know. 6 months ago i wouldn't have cared.....yet somehow it bothered me today. i guess that's my conscious waking up....

i don't really think i'm a prick in general

just today i was

and overall, i'd rather refrain from making bad jokes at the expense of others

Also - i think the reason it bothers me is cause i am trying to move past that stage of my life where i made fun of everything and everybody, so every time the old me comes out, i actually feel remorse ("i shouldn't have said that" type shit)

[azn8oi]

I know someone that's a prick myself. He's a Chinese American guy that tries to preach about the superiority of different regions in China, ex) Northerners are better than Cantos (Southerners), blah blah blah, to other Chinese Americans. His reasons are inane, stupid, and offensive. He says other shit of course, so it doesn't stop there.

No one likes him, and I would go as far to say everyone hates him. He's not a bad person, but he just doesn't hold back, and says the stupidest fuckin shit in the world. I'm a decently accepting person, and I am also able to tolerate minorly annoying people, but you should really just watch your mouth sometimes.

There's no need to say shit that is uncalled for, unless it's really, really funny.

[azn8oi]

On another note, I should make a comedy trio groupe with kerni and winq. I'll be the guy that holds his tongue back, winq will be the insulter, and kerni will provide some dothead jokes, a la Russell Peters.

[azn8oi]

kerni is mister indian panda, not to be confused with m-flo, the Korean American that masquerades as a Japanese rapper.

[Appleseed]

^ You mean Verbal, who is a part of (now duo) M-Flo

[azn8oi]

yes, him. my bad.

[pieiskewl]

my neighbors a couple houses down the street from me, the husband died 2 days ago. another neighbor of mine asked me to house sit for them (the one who's husband died recently) while they're having the funeral for him. the thought of me spending time in a house where someone died recently is really unnerving. i don't handle death well. i guess it's only 3 hours tomorrow.

[azn8oi]

if you live in suburban philly, why does someone need to house sit?

Always a Home Alone concept?

[pieiskewl]

it's more of an exurb i guess. i'm the last stop on the r5. apparently someone told her (the widow) that robbers rob people who are having a funeral because they know that nobody is there? so i'm house sitting.

[Phyziks]

I just cut some jalapenos for my burrito, then I took a piss before washing my hands. My dick feels like it's on fire right now.

[gas prices kill]

lately, i've been feeling very apathetic and unmotivated towards everything. class starts in about a week, but i could give less of a shit about it.

more or less, i feel like i'm in a funk and i need to get myself out of it.

[samsikle]

never getting drunk at a concert ever again. could barely enjoy it in the middle of fighting stupid fools behind me trying to pass me up and barely being able to breathe. i told one of the guys "YOU NEED TO CHILL THE FUCK OUT" and he totally stopped elbowing me. though i came home, showered, found bruises all around.

i also skimped out on my veggie detox cleanse. bff and i had 4 drinks each at the concert then went to go eat in n out (#2 w/ animal style fries). delicious.

[lawless]

yo was this the arctic monkeys concert?

how was it?

[AstroWolf]

i guess it's only 3 hours tomorrow.

Get some hookers and booze and drugs. Live life as if you were the star of risky business for those three hours, feel like a god!

[braid]

Saw We Were Promised Jetpacks last night and they were fucking amazing. Might have been cause I was high as fuck though.

[whizkit]

I've gotten too mentally and emotionally invested in some things that i shouldn't have, and it sucks.

[Sayword]

women ?

[jeepster]

food ?

architecture ?

[goat]

superfuture?

[samsikle]

yo was this the arctic monkeys concert?

how was it?

yeah it was. the concert was pretty awesome, they're such a great band to see live

[dismalfuture]

My girlfriend broke up with me last night, kind of like putting a pin to the balloon of tension that's been inflating over time. We live together though, so she said she was gonna stay a week more and I told her to stay two, and we're ok on that. I think we've been together about 9 months, so that seems pretty short but for me that's more like 9 years in my terms, the longest relationship I've had by three months.

Only reason: it's hard to live in Korea if you're Japanese, it's third world vs first world, and if you're not struggling to get by, then it's not really interesting here.

I don't blame her, it's not very nice here for the fancy stuff, so it was an amicable end. She got up at two, signed the apartment lease off to me (she'll probably leave me ten grand in the deposit) and started packing up boxes today. I have a fully set up house now, and a dog. A lot more than I started with when I came here last year. It's a nice place so that is good, it's a two-story apartment and I have a full kitchen and nice furniture set up here, and I can keep the dog without people hassling me, which is rare.

It's probably been obvious that it was gonna have to end, but it is bittersweet, she's been my best friend, she helped me start the Temple of Jawnz house label in various ways, and been my fallback person often times and life had smoothed out for me. I'm all set up now so I don't have to worry about going it alone now, but the first night alone after spending days on end being with someone for a man is never very friendly, so i have that to look forward to in a couple weeks, plus the inevitable tears about losing friends and seeing a little dog unknowingly run after an owner for the last time...

[thomas_highstreet]

thats what you get for being a filthy boozin' bandito my man....

your right about the seoul lifestyle. its a hustlers town..... and you gotta get that hustle or get out...

my condolences to your lost one, but if shes a keeper she'll be back, and if not, orgy @ TOJ headquarters next month? i got mad korean beezies.

[braid]

Man, sorry to hear that dismal. Sucks, I was in similar situation earlier this year. It gets easier with time.

[dismalfuture]

yeah I'll sort out refreshments and appetizers for Korean orgy if they like nouvelle cuisine and Cass and shit I doubt this woman is coming back considering, haha.

[dismalfuture]

Man, sorry to hear that dismal. Sucks, I was in similar situation earlier this year. It gets easier with time.

nah I'm alright already. The last day will be tough but I'll find a way to pad it off, I've built up a tolerance to heartbreak because scars don't scar over as well as pure flesh.

[dismalfuture]

BTW, breakup will not reflect on TOJ activities, and may even strengthen them...

[jeepster]

I say by fall 2010, we have the first TOJ sponsored basketball game... just sayin.

[dismalfuture]

The TOJ is all under 6 foot tall and Asian, got no hops. We are all alcoholics and can hit 400-500' home runs though, and we are starting a baseball team in S/S10. (0)

TOJ baseball caps will be in dark green with the TOJ logo.