superconfessional

[lmk1995]

what happens when you realize you might not be right for the life plan you had. i'm literally terrified of the future.

[dovo]

what happens when you realize you might not be right for the life plan you had. i'm literally terrified of the future.

since graduation i been working as much as i can/looking for a 2nd job and trying to figure out shit to do with all this free time. I've also been trying to figure out what the fuck I'm tryna do with my life and then i freak out so much that i can't think and then i freak out about that.

recently though, i took up gardening (no martha) and honestly its relaxing as fuck cause I'm just out here chillen. we have a pretty huge and barren backyard (green plants and veggies and shit but dead grass etc) cause my mom is into conserving water and alternative energy and shit (she hates prius' doe (yesss) ). Since i been out in the backyard plantin, tending, building shit, and laying down a lawn alternative, I've never had so many positive/productive thoughts and ideas in my life man. I'm just out in the yard relaxin and that lead to me doing even more productive shit.

Not saying you gotta throw the gardening gloves on but i think its just all about relaxin and letting yourself truly work things out. you've gotten this far and you're more than capable of reaching even further.

just chill. you're young, get out there and try some shit. it'll come to you if you let it bruh.

[lmk1995]

I'm just frightened that I'm going to graduate with a $200k education that isn't right for me. feels bad man.

[ojsimpson]

having ugly children is my single biggest fear in life

now you know what your parents had to go through

[shinobi2000]

I'm just frightened that I'm going to graduate with a $200k education that isn't right for me. feels bad man.

you paid or mommy/daddy paid? if you: make the most of it, if mommy/daddy: who cares? that's what they signed on for one horny moment years ago

[OkayOkay]

I'm just frightened that I'm going to graduate with a $200k education that isn't right for me. feels bad man.

what's your major. If you say art or communications tho...

Edited June 21, 2012 by OkayOkay

[lmk1995]

biophysics. parents paid. not actually 200k, financial aid, but still.

[OkayOkay]

Oh, yea...biophysics. You shoulda chose something else bro, you're fucked. Not much money/future in anything like that.

(guess my sarcasm level)

[lmaozedong]

biophysics. parents paid. not actually 200k, financial aid, but still.

one of my friends graduated from your major at hopkins in 2010. she's trying to get into law school now. lulz

what happened to your premed dreams?

[lmk1995]

i never was premed. have always wanted to go into research of some type. at this point i figure i'll get a phd then go into industry.

anyway, is your friend getting into law school in order to work in patent law?

[lmaozedong]

i never was premed. have always wanted to go into research of some type. at this point i figure i'll get a phd then go into industry.

anyway, is your friend getting into law school in order to work in patent law?

i could've sworn you talked about premed requirements once. anyway nah, she was going to do the same thing you were gonna do--phd and then industry, but then decided she didn't want to do it anymore. now she's studying for the lsat because she didn't know what else to do with her degree

anyway being a pure science major is tough, so i feel u there. if you don't go into research or grad school there aren't a ton of other options

[lmk1995]

yeah thats my issue, i feel like i don't really have to many options in case the phd doesn't work out. my major covers almost all the premed requirements, so thats an option if i want, but it's not what i want to do. i'll figure it out. i might go work for an ngo for a few months after i graduate to try and figure stuff out, I think that'd be a cool experience.

[shinobi2000]

not sure what your major covered exactly, but is any of it good for applied sciences like engineering? there are tons of vacant positions in the engineering field these days. take my advice, don't use medicine as a default to fall back on, it's really not worth it anymore these days. At least not in america.

[lmaozedong]

yeah medicine is a terrible way to make money.

[Walt Thizzney]

ever try to figure out how u got to this message board and why u give a dam about all this stupid shit in the first place?

[boy better know]

people make mistakes and mistakes make people

yolo

[OkayOkay]

just talked to a homie serving in Afghanistan, got hit by a roadside bomb yesterday and got a bit beat up. He's an amazing dude, one of the best I know, and still has his head up. Dealt with more shit than I'll ever know prob. I think about my problems and feel like a fucking asshole for even sweating any of the petty, peasant bullshit on my mind. I'mma send him a pack w candy and magazines and movies and shit, not sure what else to put in there. A legit towel or something like that...trying to think about what he can't get over there. Hit me with some ideas. Can't send booze I guess :/

[Dropt]

A miniature tank ?

No, seriously, just send him a nice text card w/ some material shit. Words work magic.

[fang]

junk food and porn

[OkayOkay]

I guess they'll confiscate porn or even "semi porn" whatever the fuck that is...kopped junk food, gum (du's quitting smoking), magazines, a couple books, gonna throw some music on a flash drive or cd, was also thinking about sending a ton of stickers (I have hundreds of skate/snow ones still) to give to kids out there, heard that goes a long way. Sending a new towel, a legit razor, shit like that. Wish I could send booze, I'd ship a ton of those little Walker Black bottles.

[OkayOkay]

dbl post :/

Edited June 26, 2012 by OkayOkay

[madstaxbro]

^ SEND LOGS OF DIP

Every time I come within a mile of LA/big urban spots the theme from Taxi Driver pops into my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EIgCFDxmgw&feature=youtu.be

[akuma no uta]

last night in a fit of undeserved rage i smashed my iPhone 4S into thousands of tiny little glass shards.

and honestly, i feel so good about it. i feel so free with no phone.

[StrangeLove]

Send em sunflower seeds. its a goood way to pass time /help quit smoking

[heyheyhey]

I fucked up an exam and now I cant progress to the honours class. I'm being forced to finish after next year. This has totally changed my life plans and I really don't know what I'm going to do. I can either try moving universities after this coming year and gain an honours through a worse university, or I can use the ties that my current university has to a university down south to gain a job straight after the coming year, work at it for two years so I can get into a Masters programme (2 years experience is a necessary criteria) and progress my career that way.

Either way I don't get to stay where I am for the year I had planned. The honours year is pure academia, unlike the rest of my degree which is full of required practical placement, and I was really looking forward to having the time to do that sort of course again. Plus I'm now in a new relationship, and we'll have to go long distance (again) which could just complicate what has been a brilliantly uncomplicated, amazing relationship so far.

D'you know what the kick in the teeth is? I missed the grade by one mark. One. I obviously understand there has to be a cutoff where people do not meet the required standard, but knowing I put myself through such stress for months just to miss by such a small margin is hell. I almost wish they hadn't told me.

I'd love to say that's the worst thing about the situation, but having people tell me that I should be proud of what I've achieved even if I didn't get what I wanted is really hard to hear. I feel embarrassed infront of the people I'm closest to, and I don't think that feeling is going to go away in a hurry.

[t3hcoke]

people are telling you that because they don't hang out with you because you're [not] in a honors program. Chin up, rationalize why you feel that way and do something.

[heyheyhey]

Its simply that I need to judge my life by different standards. It's hard to do though.

[sawyer]

I fucked up an exam and now I cant progress to the honours class. I'm being forced to finish after next year. This has totally changed my life plans and I really don't know what I'm going to do. I can either try moving universities after this coming year and gain an honours through a worse university, or I can use the ties that my current university has to a university down south to gain a job straight after the coming year, work at it for two years so I can get into a Masters programme (2 years experience is a necessary criteria) and progress my career that way.

Either way I don't get to stay where I am for the year I had planned. The honours year is pure academia, unlike the rest of my degree which is full of required practical placement, and I was really looking forward to having the time to do that sort of course again. Plus I'm now in a new relationship, and we'll have to go long distance (again) which could just complicate what has been a brilliantly uncomplicated, amazing relationship so far.

D'you know what the kick in the teeth is? I missed the grade by one mark. One. I obviously understand there has to be a cutoff where people do not meet the required standard, but knowing I put myself through such stress for months just to miss by such a small margin is hell. I almost wish they hadn't told me.

i'm not sure if it's too late or if you've already tried this, but talk to your advisor, the dean, faculty who you have gotten to know well and anyone else who will go to bat for you. if you've really worked hard and have been an outstanding student, they should give you a pass

you have to have made a genuine connection with your professors/tas/advisors though, if you are just another face that kept silent during all your classes and never went to office hours they'll just think, "ok who is this now?"

[shinobi2000]

sorry to hear about the missed mark but it's necessary to take things in perspective. I don't want to presume to know what your predicament is but it's rare that one's entire life will hang on the balance of *one* point on an exam. If you let this one point define you then it will.

[heyheyhey]

Luckily I'm on a very small course where lecturers and tutors know who I am and they were as surprised as I was when they heard. They vouched for me but ultimately its the exam boards decision and the decision has been made. They have helped me a lot and showed me the best way to go with my career, which is great. At least some of my friends are in the same boat and now have the same plan as me. Plus it actually doesn't affect my job position or starting salary so I'll be a year ahead of my honours friends when they graduate. Its a big change but the end of the world it is not.