superconfessional

[dismalfuture]

oh, I'll be ok. I haven't drank a drop in three weeks, minus a slipup beer I had a few days ago. Currently the most clear headed I've been since middle school. I burned myself out on clubs last year and haven't been going out much lately, so luckily I'm not feeling the burn as much. Lifestyle changes I suppose.

I have all these ideas flowering in my head, probably a result of laying off the piss. I'm currently waffling back and forth between biofuels and planning out how I can successfully pull off a foursome or fivesome with some college girls.

[gfunkdocta]

lifestyle change or rehab?

like, straight up alky or just beers every night?

[dismalfuture]

I've got some sort of illness that the doctors haven't been able to figure out and I've been going to hospitals since January, so I figured it was time to give the bottle a rest. If I start feeling better I might pick up the drink again in the future, but I've definitely slowed down to where I will take easier on myself if I do. Maybe stick to a strict intake of wine and vodka exclusively next time around.

I had pretty much gotten used to regulating my body clock/24 hr day by the bottle and spending my nights working on blacking out to fall asleep for the past 8 years, so I guess my body finally crumbled and decided it couldn't take it. It's nice to not feel so oafish in the mornings and to be able to start on things within an hour of waking up now, but it's not lots of fun.

My creativity is waning without the drink, so my mind is pretty scattered right now and it's hard to elicit anything that amuses myself...

[azn8oi]

D-

STOP DOWNLOADING WHATEVER IT IS THAT YOU'RE DOWNLOADlNG. MAYBE THEN YOU WON'T BE SUBJECTED TO THE RIDICULOUS TRAGEDIES WITHIN THEM THAT ARE CROSSING OVER TO REAL-LIFE.

i kanser. !?!?!?!?!??!?

[masuerte]

Hey.. not cool. You're supposed to die of stds... not some random freakin' unknown disease caused by watching meatspin.com/2girls1cup/japanbarforamaporn/balkandecapitations for 80% of your day. (8)

Srsly man, get better.

I tried on some dior stretchy black mij's today... they are super slim and super gay thank god they got some 2% stretch fabric or else they would be painful to wear.

[dismalfuture]

my life is a true Korean drama. I have considered making a little film based directly or in part (kind of Bill Brasky'ish) on my life. (0) I think it'd be an entertaining little flick and maybe get some people thinking about things, but my hangup is that, knowing myself, the ending would inevitably be a sad/shocking one and I don't want to jinx myself too badly.

I have been drywalling and laying hardwood floor at my house for what seems the past month and I feel like a denimhead as my raw denims are starting to get nicely faded. That is what I have been doing to fill in the downtime in my life lately. I'm sitting here typing this message to you all stone cold sober, chewing sugar free gum. My right hand that is normally employed in beer drinking while I superfuture is strangely free and I'm considering masturbating, but am kind of uninspired by porn lately.

[junglejane]

lately I have been thinking about dropping my engineering studies mid-career and going to SF to study industrial design. a particular math-filled class is burning my brain, and i'm scared that this is how it's going to be from now on and in the workplace. I want to be able to design cars with the bases of engineering as to not create sad and far-fetched concepts that are completely impossible to make in terms of aerodynamics and cost (as is the case with most design school renderings), but I am losing hope that I will be able to implement creativity in a world of pure techicality. the cold, hard, unbending logic of it all is scaring me.

maybe it's my goddamn teacher (I am 99% sure he is an android) who scrawls equations on the chalkboard with no facial expression at all and keeping a monotone drone for 2 hours straight.

I know it would be wrong to throw what I've done so far in the garbage...I could always graduate here and then go to SF with a degree in hand. but I just don't know how freaking long will it take me to get my degree (in italy you get your degree when you pass all your exams, you can retake an exam as many times as you want until you pass it, so to graduate you can take as many years as you need. but I dont want to take 900 years to get my bachelors).

ARGHHGHHGH

[samsikle]

junglemonster, if things don't pan out you're welcomed to work at the CUPCAKEBONANZAAAAAA. <3

[geekbonchic]

junglemonster, if things don't pan out you're welcomed to work at the CUPCAKEBONANZAAAAAA. <3

[samsikle]

why are you so great!?

p.s. can you make me a sig version? :]

[midnight]

TRANSFERRRRRRRR. Makes life a lot more interesting.

[landho]

thats shits all filled with subliminal messages....you dont fucking hear it???? I know you fucking hear it!!!

KILL KILL KILL KILL!!! split her head with an axe!! Eat at Klucking chicken!! Kill KILL KILL!!!!!!!!

STOP!!!!!!!!!! leave me alone!!! Into Crypt of rays!!!!!!!

I do find it oddly and perversely satisfying in GTA4 to murder someone at close range with a shotgun....

[jetlenoir]

lately I have been thinking about dropping my engineering studies mid-career and going to SF to study industrial design. a particular math-filled class is burning my brain, and i'm scared that this is how it's going to be from now on and in the workplace. I want to be able to design cars with the bases of engineering as to not create sad and far-fetched concepts that are completely impossible to make in terms of aerodynamics and cost (as is the case with most design school renderings), but I am losing hope that I will be able to implement creativity in a world of pure techicality. the cold, hard, unbending logic of it all is scaring me.

maybe it's my goddamn teacher (I am 99% sure he is an android) who scrawls equations on the chalkboard with no facial expression at all and keeping a monotone drone for 2 hours straight.

I know it would be wrong to throw what I've done so far in the garbage...I could always graduate here and then go to SF with a degree in hand. but I just don't know how freaking long will it take me to get my degree (in italy you get your degree when you pass all your exams, you can retake an exam as many times as you want until you pass it, so to graduate you can take as many years as you need. but I dont want to take 900 years to get my bachelors).

ARGHHGHHGH

Mind if I ask how old you are?

I was a history major. Dropped it. I'm 23 now and I still have no idea what I want to do. So I go to a community college until I figure out exactly why I want to bury myself under a lifetime of loan debt.

[DaBestSpoona]

my life is a true Korean drama. I have considered making a little film based directly or in part (kind of Bill Brasky'ish) on my life. (0) I think it'd be an entertaining little flick and maybe get some people thinking about things, but my hangup is that, knowing myself, the ending would inevitably be a sad/shocking one and I don't want to jinx myself too badly.

I have been drywalling and laying hardwood floor at my house for what seems the past month and I feel like a denimhead as my raw denims are starting to get nicely faded. That is what I have been doing to fill in the downtime in my life lately. I'm sitting here typing this message to you all stone cold sober, chewing sugar free gum. My right hand that is normally employed in beer drinking while I superfuture is strangely free and I'm considering masturbating, but am kind of uninspired by porn lately.

Until someone you know develops leukemia, and you fall in love with a ugly girl who happens to be hot when she takes off her glasses, your life isnt korean drama.

[avatar]

transferring fucking sucks don't do it

[cinderella]

The majority of my wardrobe is still in various bags all over my floor from moving back home 2 weeks ago...

Rather than make an effort to clean, I just sat in my parent's room and ate lemon yogurt and watched food network. All day long.

[landho]

Props to Dismal for giving up drinking, but slops to the unknown disease that brought about this situation.

[Blicero]

maybe it's my goddamn teacher (I am 99% sure he is an android) who scrawls equations on the chalkboard with no facial expression at all and keeping a monotone drone for 2 hours straight.

Asperger's Syndrome. I'd figure there'd be a ton of people somewhere on the spectrum in engineering school.

[samsikle]

Rather than make an effort to clean, I just sat in my parent's room and ate lemon yogurt and watched food network. All day long.

sounds like my kinda productivity

[dunkin deeznuts]

between playing GTA 4, listening to Celtic Frost and Venom, and reading "American Psycho" on my ride into work....I want to seriously mangle some mutherfuckers.......

I have all these knots in my stomach which I think can only be satisfied by blood.......

every stupid bitch that bumps into me with her/his bag on the train pushes me one step closer to the edge.....

would anyone really notice if i hipchecked this piece of shit onto the tracks? honk one more time cabby.........

[landho]

between playing GTA 4, listening to Celtic Frost and Venom, and reading "American Psycho" on my ride into work....I want to seriously mangle some mutherfuckers.......

I have all these knots in my stomach which I think can only be satisfied by blood.......

every stupid bitch that bumps into me with her/his bag on the train pushes me one step closer to the edge.....

would anyone really notice if i hipchecked this piece of shit onto the tracks? honk one more time cabby.........

Maybe you should listen to the Journey radio station while driving on GTA4....

[_ironman]

lately I have been thinking about dropping my engineering studies mid-career and going to SF to study industrial design. a particular math-filled class is burning my brain, and i'm scared that this is how it's going to be from now on and in the workplace. I want to be able to design cars with the bases of engineering as to not create sad and far-fetched concepts that are completely impossible to make in terms of aerodynamics and cost (as is the case with most design school renderings), but I am losing hope that I will be able to implement creativity in a world of pure techicality. the cold, hard, unbending logic of it all is scaring me.

having a bachelor's of engineering can get you a wide range of jobs, and you can definitely find one that lets you be creative at work. and if it's any consolation, most engineers i personally know (plus friends/family of friends) hardly do anything at work lol

maybe it's my goddamn teacher (I am 99% sure he is an android) who scrawls equations on the chalkboard with no facial expression at all and keeping a monotone drone for 2 hours straight.

i also had an android professor just this past term; imagine the godfather talking for 3 hours straight about nuclear reactor kinetics...it was intensely flop

[dunkin deeznuts]

Maybe you should listen to the Journey radio station while driving on GTA4....

thats shits all filled with subliminal messages....you dont fucking hear it???? I know you fucking hear it!!!

KILL KILL KILL KILL!!! split her head with an axe!! Eat at Klucking chicken!! Kill KILL KILL!!!!!!!!

STOP!!!!!!!!!! leave me alone!!! Into Crypt of rays!!!!!!!

[please underestimate]

my friend took my car and hit and run. cops found me 3hrs. later all thizzed up and high, and i was free of all charges.

[chronoaug]

So you and your friend are both idiots?

[jeepster]

lately I have been thinking about dropping my engineering studies mid-career and going to SF to study industrial design. a particular math-filled class is burning my brain, and i'm scared that this is how it's going to be from now on and in the workplace. I want to be able to design cars with the bases of engineering as to not create sad and far-fetched concepts that are completely impossible to make in terms of aerodynamics and cost (as is the case with most design school renderings), but I am losing hope that I will be able to implement creativity in a world of pure techicality. the cold, hard, unbending logic of it all is scaring me.

maybe it's my goddamn teacher (I am 99% sure he is an android) who scrawls equations on the chalkboard with no facial expression at all and keeping a monotone drone for 2 hours straight.

I know it would be wrong to throw what I've done so far in the garbage...I could always graduate here and then go to SF with a degree in hand. but I just don't know how freaking long will it take me to get my degree (in italy you get your degree when you pass all your exams, you can retake an exam as many times as you want until you pass it, so to graduate you can take as many years as you need. but I dont want to take 900 years to get my bachelors).

ARGHHGHHGH

jj, my dad told me stories like this when he was going through architecture school to get his degree. he really had trouble balancing what he wanted to do with the reality of his work-life after college, but eventually, with tons of hard work, it payed off and now he thoroughly enjoys the creativity and happiness that his work brings him. but engineering/architecture/design ain't just fun-and-games anymore, and he keeps giving me lectures on trying to find an area of study that will really catch my attention.

i dunno. school is headaches fo sho. eventually though, the universe has a way of working itself out.

maybe this helps? :confused:

[Guest spazzz]

my life is a true Korean drama. I have considered making a little film based directly or in part (kind of Bill Brasky'ish) on my life. (0) I think it'd be an entertaining little flick and maybe get some people thinking about things, but my hangup is that, knowing myself, the ending would inevitably be a sad/shocking one and I don't want to jinx myself too badly.

I have been drywalling and laying hardwood floor at my house for what seems the past month and I feel like a denimhead as my raw denims are starting to get nicely faded. That is what I have been doing to fill in the downtime in my life lately. I'm sitting here typing this message to you all stone cold sober, chewing sugar free gum. My right hand that is normally employed in beer drinking while I superfuture is strangely free and I'm considering masturbating, but am kind of uninspired by porn lately.

bizzare bunch or my sassy girl?

lately I have been thinking about dropping my engineering studies mid-career and going to SF to study industrial design. a particular math-filled class is burning my brain, and i'm scared that this is how it's going to be from now on and in the workplace. I want to be able to design cars with the bases of engineering as to not create sad and far-fetched concepts that are completely impossible to make in terms of aerodynamics and cost (as is the case with most design school renderings), but I am losing hope that I will be able to implement creativity in a world of pure techicality. the cold, hard, unbending logic of it all is scaring me.

maybe it's my goddamn teacher (I am 99% sure he is an android) who scrawls equations on the chalkboard with no facial expression at all and keeping a monotone drone for 2 hours straight.

I know it would be wrong to throw what I've done so far in the garbage...I could always graduate here and then go to SF with a degree in hand. but I just don't know how freaking long will it take me to get my degree (in italy you get your degree when you pass all your exams, you can retake an exam as many times as you want until you pass it, so to graduate you can take as many years as you need. but I dont want to take 900 years to get my bachelors).

ARGHHGHHGH[/quote

engineering is much easier to find a quick job.

Mind if I ask how old you are?

I was a history major. Dropped it. I'm 23 now and I still have no idea what I want to do. So I go to a community college until I figure out exactly why I want to bury myself under a lifetime of loan debt.

scholarships

[midnight]

I feel like i have no friends and i am alone and that everybody in the world is in on something that i'm not. Everybody is just a made up object of your imagination that tests how good of a person you are so that when you "die" you are actually sent into a completely different real world where how you acted in your previous life is taken into account greatly. I'm not saying multiple lives, i'm just saying like a video game type thing the first time and then real shit the 2nd. Freaks me out. A lot.

[mr fluffernutter]

drugs do tht

i hear

[homme.homme]

today i receive raf simons sleeveless hoodie from suckdick.

i like the way it smells.