superconfessional

[sybaritical]

I have a daily Kriya yoga practice,that incorporates Shoonya meditation, but the month of silence was part of a Samyama process I chose to undergo in India.

It had a number of requirements & involved a preliminary 40 day purification period consisting of my daily Kriyas, plus prolonged Pranayama & hardcore Asana practice, a regime of abstinence & a very strict pranic diet. When it arrived, the program was still an intense experience, with deep & unimaginable mystic happenings that were compounded by the close proximity & necessary daily interaction with the huge number of other residents & devotees & the demands of our work around the place.

At the time I was counting the days until it ended, but in hindsight what it has gifted me is immeasurable & unfathomable. I certainly wouldn't be as solid and comfortable in myself as I am today had I not undertaken it & can't imagine life without the practices now.

[sybaritical]

does posting on the interwebs count?

Yes.

Of course.

There are many ways to enlightenment.

[noobedloser]

why must i procrastinate on UC apps

[GiZMO]

Life sucks and I'm making it that way. Been fuxxing with thizz for past few months but only rolled a handful of times cuz this antidepressant I take fucks with it. I stopped taking it for a while so my serotonin levels reset. But like, so it's like yo I can't even get high what the fuck piss me off shit ass fuck.

[SDES]

I now have six varsity jackets in my wardrobe.

Two are TOJ, WTS one.

Two are the exact same, just different size, WTS both.

In total, I want to sell four of them.

[suremanok]

just give me one.. or two if you want.

[noobedloser]

finally finished all CSU/UC apps

[redX]

fuck man i'm freaking out - finally finished my one important presentation this semester i have to present tomorrow that i could have prepared weeks ahead...

dear professor,

please don't ask any complicated questions

dear brain,

tomorrow please work at top performance levels

[sean_]

fuck man i'm freaking out - finally finished my one important presentation this semester i have to present tomorrow that i could have prepared weeks ahead...

dear professor,

please don't ask any complicated questions

dear brain,

tomorrow please work at top performance levels

hahaha i have one of these in the morning. i'm not even close to prepared. i just want to pass and get this week/weekend over with and be able to leave my apartment/the library again

[redX]

yeah well i guess i somehow passed. some of the questions were pretty easy and i goofed up on 'em, my brain decided to go for short breaks during the whole thing

[ke1]

grats red. After taking Speech this semester I've come to realize how easily your mind can fail on you when you're under stress.

[squirtlepk]

listened to old school bsb songs

yeah i know all the lyrics, so do you

[spaces]

ahhhh FUCK that girl.

I think i'm done chasing a ghost.

trying to move on.

hopefully my friend can set me up with one of her friends.

[spaces]

bump.

taking the SAT tomorrow for the first time. Never studied in my life until two days ago. we'll see how this goes wooooooooo.

[ke1]

My senior year, I took the last possible SAT with the least amount of studying and ended up with a dismal 1600... goodluck.

[spaces]

still a junior, aha, i've convinced this is my feeler / foot in the water test to see where I need to improve.

I definitely think the whole SAT thing is a scam though. but i need to rest.

[f50fan]

You have shit tons of time left bro.

I too only took it once. Got a fairly decent score so I didnt retake.

Atleast good that you're taking it early.

[AstroWolf]

I have had a occurring oddity in my life pop up once again.

Girls I am friends with, who I never slept with, who often repect or even love me as a friend, when wasted, Fucking get means and hostile to me!!! Rude. Violent. Yelling. Kicking.

2 of my friends did this recently. Both have boy friends. One I am suprised I never banged. The other is a good friend and one of my best friends girl friends who I met though him when they first started dating three years ago.

I do not understand this energy. Anyone have a idea why these chicks act out on me like this when wasted?

[AstroWolf]

One is a friend who I really am surprised we never got together. Known her for five years. She rocks and I know we are friends.

The other is my good friends gf. We both remind each other of our friends back home. She's from Italy and I am from NYC. Hard to find kindered spirits on that level here in xxx. People are all so random.

It happened in college a lot to me too.

I really want to understand this. It bothers me when people I usually expect one energy from switch up on me.

[AstroWolf]

Both of them have serious boy friends who are good friends of mine as well. We all hang out together as a crew. This happens in front of their bf's.

I am not oblivious to attraction. I do not think they are attracted to me. Perhaps I am oblivious. They do not do this to anyone else I see.

I am also the biggest asshole of our group. But in no case have I been wasted or rude when these events occur. Usually I am actually in good form. Does that factor in?

[haploid]

Maybe their boyfriends have accused them of being attracted to you and they are overcompensating? Just a thought. Seems juvenile but you never know

[bill]

i can officially say that i lost my best friend.

[duck sauce]

One of my friends may have just died. I feel like a bad person.

[spaces]

said i would be trying to get over.

not working.

all she needs to do is send me a text. i go right back.

says some shit like "i honestly hope i will know you for the rest of my life"

what the fuuuuuuuu

[okonomi]

i can officially say that i lost my best friend.

Wow, I am about *this* close to having this happen as well.

[bill]

Wow, I am about *this* close to having this happen as well.

please dont let it happen

[khoa]

said i would be trying to get over.

not working.

all she needs to do is send me a text. i go right back.

says some shit like "i honestly hope i will know you for the rest of my life"

what the fuuuuuuuu

i feel you brother

[Scais]

1st birthday in 2 years without you

[shufon]

this thread is too fucking depressing sometimes.

I dunno, most of the stuff posted in the last few pages isn't even extreme or crazy as far as depressing goes. this thread is just depressing in general.

/observation

[the Repeater]

if going for a boring 8 and a 6 and the 6 grabs your hand sweetly and calls out an ass pat and turns it into a grab magically you have a 9.