juliaN.

dear lord, i found salvation in pickpocketing this olive green threadbare peacoat. a highway 3000 miles to redemption blasted sand and a jesus figure on the nodding at me while i'm high off this typewriter.

yeah. the internet these days seems even less relaxed than the relaxer its supposed to be innit

that's good man. keep it up, maybe that's your calling in life

yeah pretty much every waking moment of mine is spent just thinkin up random phrases, lyrics, images whatever that may or may not join together to form something more cohesive...lately i been writing mostly poetry as i'm too lazy to work on a longer piece of prose, good way to pass the time.

the last few times I stayed in a hotel I noticed that the housekeepers were from china..I've always stayed in the same hotel at Jordan

Jordan!!!!

Uhh...let's just say that's no place for a mild mannered college age girl to be staying at, any time of day let alone overnight.

the Langham Place in Mong Kok is alright but it's just surrounded by so much crowds and grimeyness it doesn't justify the prices. I mean that hotel is literally a block away from one of the most massive whorehouses of a neighborhood you can find in this city.

eh, on one hand you can act it out and be immortalized as a monster (of the bad kind)

on the other, sure at the beginning if nobody knows who you are and comes across your shit, they might second guess entering a friendship with you or point in the direction of the insane asylum. But shit, get a few things published in the New Yorker, get a couple of novels under your belt that get decent reviews here and there...next thing you know, you can write about stuff like masturbating on a dead lover's grave or triple X rated graphic transcripts of phone sex between an old man and a college girl and win GQ's Icon of the Year. Just ask Philip Roth.

I am too

about two weeks ago

when I was happy

and I felt like I had the beginnings of a relationship

how quickly things change.

yo, i don't know if you're doing this on purpose, but that shit just quoted is a pretty dope poem.

if you're feelin like you're in the pits, give writing a try. don't even need to be inspired, feel like shit, forget the bottle and the pills or whatever. just open up word and start typin shit like what you just did. you can even write crazy shit like make up characters who are actually projections of people/things/ideas you hate and them kill em off in your prose or poetry. Best of all, you can kill these things without going to jail.

Fuck L Ron Hubbard and

Fuck all his clones.

Fuck all those gun-toting

Hip gangster wannabes.

Learn to swim.

Fuck retro anything.

Fuck your tattoos.

Fuck all you junkies and

Fuck your short memory.

Learn to swim.

Fuck smiley glad-hands

With hidden agendas.

Fuck these dysfunctional,

Insecure actresses.

Learn to swim.

did you write this? this is pretty good

i didn't gain or lose anything from it, shit just is. Yeah I've done some stupid shit online, but probably even more offline. I don't understand people who dwell on and live in the past, regret and nostalgia are useless and are simply ways that people shield themselves from the reality of the present.

but yes, if you want to put it aptly, the past 24 years just faded to black.

If I joined in Oct of 2005 does that mean I've officially wasted 3 years of my life on this site?

Brother, I'll be the first to admit, I've wasted the past ten years of my life on the internet. Nothing to feel bad about, that time is forever gone, it might as well have never been.

in today's economic climate, cash is king

fucking truth right here.

disgruntled boutique employees in Asia...if there's one type of salesperson I'd have thought had gone extinct it would've been that. Ever since the floodgates of China opened, in the past few years never encountered any bad service even in boutiques that were previously notorious for having such vibes. Now any random nondescript guy walking in with an undershirt, dockers type trousers and asics running shoes could be the same dude walking out with shopping bags by the boatload.

if anything it seems that generally the people who go shopping well dressed in designer duds are the ones who often just go there to look around, from my observation.

get a basic Moncler, that never goes out of style. Junya Watanabe also did some stuff with them, not sure if those were on sale.

or...i think Number (N)ine had some decent corduroy and wool coat that were pretty thick and heavy and are on a decent discount, like 50% off. But you might find the stuff a bit too shabby/thrift store, i dunno.

i also saw a nice Balenciaga black 3/4 length coat, didnt check price or look too closely so i dont remember anything about it other than that description.

Panic you remind me of my boss minus the intense facial hair when i interned at Club21.

lol you in Asia? A girl i know has been working there (HK offices though, so not main HQ), havent seen/spoken in a while so dont know if shes still there. Apparently she was getting paid peanuts and the overall job sucked.

fuckin facebook apps bother me like no other...getting like 3-4 notifications a day tellin me people i havent spoken to in years are drawing assessments of my life and shit. a trillion neg rep to the people who install every single game and virtual pet/plant/rock whatever and proceed to invite you to join...dumbasses are opening their info to the new world order and dont even know it.

I don't like passing under the radar. Whats wrong with the shoes, tell meeee. They're Tod's.

Tod's are cool, but are tough as nails to break in. I haven't been to a Tod's boutique in a while so no idea what kinda stuff they're cookin up these days, but last I checked they did decent shoes. The current campaign's the one with Gwyneth Paltrow right? Ahhh she looks good in anything.

no, i chose liberal arts so i could get the fuck out of there ASAP. didn't matter what i studied, pretty much anything useful I learned about navigating the world, I learned through immersing myself in society after I got out (especially the past 4-5 months have been a real eye opener).

If I could do it all over again, and had the intelligence to handle it, I probably would've liked to study something such as math, physics or some kind of engineering. Philosophy is a good subject too. In the end I went with Anthropology as it allowed me to coast through to graduation without ever having to write a paper over 10 pages.

why not

liberal arts as opposed to what? Studying business? Business schools teach you through terminology, neatly packaged buzz phrases and the "case study"...all things which could be good and useful, and may even teach you "business" as far as models and textbooks can contain, but they don't teach business sense, which can't be taught in a classroom.

If you're going to get your accounting credits through a business program or studying finance to move past the entry grade in a company, or using it as a platform to expand your network, fine. But going to business school to major in things like "marketing" or "management" or funniest of all, "entrepreneurship" is no less a waste of money than going to college to study ceramics.

i digress though...other non liberal-arts programs such as engineering or fine arts serve their purpose well, i got nothing to say about those.

the International Baccalaureate worked me harder than anything else I've come across in life. The guidance counselors weren't lying, after the IB everything feels like a breeze.

i think the fit is fine.

Bloodstone - Natural High

fuck everything right now, yo.

+1, and so it is.

my life and world right now is but a series of music and words and the occasional image, still or moving. everything and everyone else in it is just peripheral, so much so that i barely notice they're there. it's kinda nice and calm.

he's talking about the meaning of life.

I'm going thru some ish with the uni now, so Im gonna go to trade school to be a certified welder. Looks fun and heard they make bank. any opinions?

sounds good.

if there is any "profession" worth going into, forget law, medicine, accounting. Welder/cobbler/artisan is where it's at.

hang in there man. as long as the restlessness is there, you're still alive.

No idea at all but I'm doing alright, probably the best in a long time just coasting on the moment. Life gets so much better the minute you stop thinking in terms of the past or even "tomorrows"

yeah I bought Blood Meridian yesterday....The Road is a good book, not mindblowing as the reviews have said (kinda repetitive, the flashes of lyrical brilliance and insightful one liners about humanity kept it up), but I can see it having some deeper personal for McCarthy as it pertains to his fatherhood.

I will probably read Kundera's Immortality first, don't think I can read two McCarthys in a row.