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first waywt!

ok, so:

 

 

this semester i've started school for the first time in years. i felt really motivated and personally ready for the responsibility of furthering my education. i've been doing this and that for a while, working here working there- figuring everything out etc. 

 

class is going fucking great. working 30 hours a week and doing this online algebra course when suddenly-

 

i go out one night to a work party for a place i used to work at / sister currently works at. lots of food and shit loads of sake bombs, it got out of hand really quickly. the next day was the last cut off day to take an exam for my class, and i had every intention of calling it a night early when i went out. 

 

so, get more drunk that i ever have in legitimately years, wake up the next day at 10am in a strange house with a massive scrape on my head and one on my shin (do not know what happened and no one else seems to), catch a ride home with my sister, immediately fall asleep again, wake up at 4pm to my work calling me over and over (8 missed calls) and i realize at this point that 

 

A. I have not taken my test and 

B. I have no called no showed at my job.

 

Sounds awful right? nah it's all good, because-

 

Next day, pull a larry david and just show up at the job like nothing happened - no one even cared, emailed my professor and he said I am permitted to go in and take the exam whenever I want.

 

I can't tell you how embarrassed i was that day/devastated that i (thought i) had ruined my life.

 

Also my fafsa just got processed and I'm eligible for the maximum  amount for the pell grant. lol

 

 

(inserting edit here to say that my job is not really a fuck around type deal - the hiring is quite selective and i'm genuinely lucky to have been granted mercy here. it's the best paying gig i've had ever - just a context providing anecdote to insert. would have been a tragedy to lose lol i don't even know what my life is anymore)

cool, free runs are in. i've never had a shoe fit this well....

 

weather here is perfect 70s, first run was emberassing i ran in new balance 996s because I didn't have anything else and....

 

commence official training for 2m!

i was into death/black metal in high school, had ratty hair and regularly wore xl tool tees. at the end of 2003 i saw a local show with metalcore bands day of contempt/i killed the prom queen/parkway drive and quickly i had a black fringe/white belt which then progressed into a bane tee and camo shorts. i'm pretty sure the first hardcore record i ever bought was destroy the machines by earth crisis or something by american nightmare. ironically, an were the first american hc band i ever saw (and they broke up about a month after their australian tour) and ec introduced me to straight edge. i guess out of everything i saw my favourite show would have been champion/internal affairs/betrayed in melbourne '05 which i travelled for. although i completely dropped out of hc about 3ish years ago now, i'm still edge (ten years in january) and look back at those days when hc was my entire life with fond memories.

 

 

i was also really into metal / metalcore in middle school. a life once lost / darkest hour and shit as well as iron maiden and all those types of bands. some acquaintances introduced me to a few odd punk bands like the casualties and what not which is when i began exploring more punk stuff.

 

when i discovered minor threat though is when i really got into that fast punk sound and prototypical hardcore lyricism. gorilla biscuits became my favorite band of all time and seeing them live during their reunion tour in 06 really solidified my interest in hardcore. i was "straight edge" for a time, but i wouldn't really count it because i was too young for that shit to make a difference anyways. like julian, hardcore shows through highschool and early college remain as some of the funnest times in my life.

 

i think i negged you guys, my bad - i was so excited to read the replies i tried to rep them all really fast and didn't realize you only get one vote.

 

i want to say also that it's really cool getting to share this insight, it provides some context for the group. this turned out better than i anticipated. 

 

anyway, it's really interesting to see this metal to punk trend - i definitely went through a very similar transition.

 

middle school i listened to system of a down, rage, sum41, limp bizkit, 8th grade started listening to my chemical romance and muse and slipknot, 9th grade picked up a sounds of the underground 2006 (watched a shitload of headbangers ball and fuse and got most if not all of my bands from these programs) and got really REALLY into metal and started wearing jnco (lol)

 

10th grade started playing guitar and listening to shit like children of bodom, in flames, between the buried and me (as well as classics like 80s metallica and maiden), got deeper into metal (while still listening to shit like the used and underoath) and wore skinny jeans painted my nails black shit load of wallet chains straightened hair (i was a fucking mess). i joined a band for a bit to play bass and we covered some misfits and nofx, i started listening to nofx and wow i guess i just realized nofx was kind of the first punk band i ever listened to. hmmm.

 

11th grade got into the fall of troy which i then listened to incessantly for the whole year and probably is what started to shift my trajectory from metal to punk. also heard dance with the devil by tech that year and it changed my life, started listening to hip hop.

 

senior year i start to expand my music taste and get into experimental/glitch/idm more hip hop got into tech deathcore and metalcore and was really serious into guitar. 

 

post high school i just kept finding more and more music and going through different phases, a lot of my good friends listened to misfits all throughout high school so i definitely always knew who they were but i never really got it. 

 

(2012)

 

without going on and on, eventually i heard a cold world album. dedicated to babies born feet first. my tastes started to really change then. picked up a misfits cd (it's funny, this was all POST high school) and fucking loved it, i finally really 'got' it. what really, really changed me though was getting dag nasty's can i say.

 

that fucking album...

 

can i say has changed my life and is what put me onto the 80s hardcore movement. i went back and found out about revolution summer and dischord records, started listening to youth of today and minor threat, as well as black flag - became a rollins and mackaye fanboy for a bit, and i've been building a hardcore collection since then (little over a year ago). everything from early dischord to triple b. the music gave me a sense of purpose, it became something that was actually a part of my life as opposed to something that existed independently of me that i valued from afar. now i'm in a youth crew band i play with on the weekends, go to shows, and kind of use the current of the scene to push me along. i feel like i'm riding with it, i don't take it too seriously nor think my band is going to be anything big at all. it's just a lot of fun and i'm engaged in my local scene which is all i really want anyway.

 

the positive aspects of that dag nasty album though, i had never heard music like that and i'll never forget how i felt my first time listening to it. damn that was long. kind of cathartic. 

i like this one. why is it flipped? that offset problem looks like it just needs a tune up. might be a pricey electronic fix cuz those t50s ran on batteries and shit. as for the electro, never used one but i love me a range finder camera. have fun!

 

i don't remember flipping it on purpose - probably just weird developing? in any case i'm really happy with how it turned out.

 

you are probably right about needing a tune up. i'm going to take it in when i pick up my la rolls and see what i can get done with it. also i'll take my electro in and see what they say about it. i'm not too familiar with rangefinders so i'll need some practical advice on how to use it to it's potential. i understand focusing, but that's about it.

 

do you have anything you've taken on a rangefinder you can post? i'm keen on using the electro for street, the t50 has a close range problem and i don't have money right now to buy a different lens. 

 

 

Listen, mother nature will provide us with nothing, when careless living leads to destruction.

 

And when our Earth gets old, will our future generations, have something to hold-

turnstile tomorrow in San Antonio.

 

i'm one 40 deep i apologize for abruptly coming in and not really looking at previous posts but 

 

YO can we all here share some of the first bands that got us into hardcore and how immersing yourself into the scene has affected your life?

 

i see the post by HGS a few up and (first of all, holy fucking shit, you are strong as hell man and i wish you the best brightest STRONGEST future) and i got to thinking "well i know hardcore hasn't just saved my life, who the fuck else has this shit touched?"

 

so can we do a whole bit on what hardcore means to you, who you listen to, what got you into it, and what your intentions with the scene are (ex. just going to shows, in a band, hang out with dudes in bands, anarchist by nature, ecopunk, etc.)

 

i'll do one when i see it's actually started. i really am curious to see what this side of sufu has to say/think about this culture.

http://finishyour40.tumblr.com/

 

fuck with me

Lots of Jean-Luc Godard

 

and

 

 

La Vie de Jesus 

 

 

 

fucking french films

what'd you think of enter the void? i saw it a while back and for me it was highly unmemorable

 

that film really did a number on me. i used to live in Beijing CN and the lifestyle was starkly mirrored in that piece... I also have a sister whom of which i am very close to and it was one of those inexplicable (and probably unnecessary) damning connections to a piece of art that left a scarring memory. i understand the distaste for Gaspar Noe's films but i'm really glad i put myself through that one. probably won't ever do another of his though.

 

all in all, i felt the cinematography  was a demonstration of excellent talent but the content brutally raw and inaccessible. definitely a love it or hate it piece of work. 

finishing up the metamorphosis, anyone else gone through that one? got me fucked up

 

did a pick up at my half price books recently. grabbed:

 

philosophy of the right by Hegel 

 

existentialism and human emotion by Sartre

 

trying to get a better understanding of existentialism and it's economic implications. it sounds try hard and it kind of is tbh, but i'm tracing the roots of existentialism back to marx and fuerbach and hegel and seeing how far it goes. i have a lot of respect for the late Dr. Solomon (UT professor who featured a synopsis of existentialism and the meaning of human responsibility in waking life) and since reading up about him i haven't been able to drop my fixation on philosophy.

 

anyone else particularly interested in any of that?

 

also on part two of 1984.

looking into starting up and getting my 2 mile down (not down to any specific time, down as in able to run 2 miles at any pace at all) -

 

i know, sounds ridiculous, i used to play soccer and have been out of consistent physical activity for a couple years and need to get my stamina back up to a decent level. i'm really thin and my legs are way skinny. i'm over it. tried playing indoor recently and would be gasped for breath within ten minutes.

 

any recommendations for shoes? would like to avoid sweatshop product. i have a pair of 996s on the way but didn't think they would be for running necessarily. 

 

if i can't find anything non sweatshop i'm going to give in and just get a pair of free runs.

 

also, any recommendations on a routine that isn't going to hurt me? i was thinking a light/medium jog two times a week and build a foundation.

bear with me - a collection of my shots i get really nostalgic looking at.

 

very basic set up, shooting on a t50

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

these were my first few rolls ever. still working on composition - i have a bunch of rolls from a recent trip to la and one from local hardcore show that i haven't developed yet. 

 

as you can see all of the shots are skewed slightly to the left. it's this t50. i recently picked up a yashica electro that i'm looking forward to playing with. 

 

anyone else have experience with one of those? the electro?

first post on sufu, this is special yall

 

rinko kawauchi

 

ryo kawanishi

 

melissa cantanese

 

bruce davidson

 

viviane sassen

 

anyone want to share their own work? should start a thread for that...