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  1. Need some help here. 

     

    So im going to be shooting an "our process" sort of video for a rolex repairer and need a bit help choosing a lens. Im pretty sure well be shooting in a tight place and ill either be directly over or behind him 75% of the time. 

    Can anyone recommend me a pretty good canon lens for this. I sort of want to find something with a bit of versatility as well since i will most likely be renting and will want to play around with it a bit before and after the shoot. 

     

     

    Thanks! 

  2. i grew up skateboarding, playing nerd video games and listening to punk/emo/screamo etc. Fast Forward, its 2014 and now i have all these people expecting me to be like this big black guy like yo bust a move, teach us how to dougie, whats your fav 90s rnb jam? join our adult basketball team, madden 2001 or 2013? 

     

    i just can't. 

  3. someone from the sufu fam who wanted to share their experiences (not me)

     

    So for starters, I'm 17. I never really had a hard life, nor did I have an especially privileged life. I was always lower middle class, and there was never really a struggle. Only thing is my dad was never really around during my childhood, and my mom was always working.

     
    My entire deal with depression started at the end of my sophomore year of high school. I was just going into the IB Program (International Baccalaureate, AP but more pretentious and international), taking on the full diploma, one of the hardest workloads from what I had heard. My GPA was a straight 4.0, and I was on track to graduate, go to an Ivy League, with a decent scholarship too.
     
    But for some reason, during my entrance to the IB program, I lost all the motivation I had. I tried my hardest during my junior year to keep my GPA up, and despite my intentions, my grades dropped to something like a 3.38, right below the cut off for IB diploma. I was kicked out of the program the end of my junior year (after paying a few hundred in testing fees, I got a 5 on my math exam and a 6 on my psychology exam.) Despite that, I was dropped out of the program.
     
    That summer there was nothing else I could really focus on... other than clothes, I could only focus on my failure. I got into a variety of different drugs. I mean, I already smoked cigs and weed, but I tried coke, heroin, ecstasy, just about anything I could get my hands on. I knew I didn't want to ruin my life though, I stopped with all of that shit. That entire summer, I only thought of the year ahead. My final year, and I was certain it would go to shit. It's as if I was paralyzed, and I knew that I had SO much shit to do but I couldn't manage to do it. It's almost as if I felt my own regret before my actions took place.
     
    My senior year came (this year) and everything just got overwhelming. I've been smoking around 1.5 packs a day now. I know it sounds like I'm just telling you first world problems, because I am. I'm not going to refute that...
     
    Anyways, college apps have been due...  and I haven't done any of them. I realized that everything that I had worked for was destroyed, at my own hands. Not even due to laziness, but due to something deeper. I looked back at my last two years, and thought, "I wanted to go to Cornell... what are my only options now? Fucking community college?" My GPA dropped to something like an unweighted 2.9 or 3.0 - not bad by any means but just the disappointment of it was shattering.
     
    Two weeks ago, I planned my suicide. It was two in the morning, I had the bath running warm, my will written out, my last words written out. I couldn't stop crying. I was drunk and high and a fucking mess. Just as I was about to commit the deed, my mom walks in. She'd woken up to use the restroom. Her cries are something that I'll never forget. The guilt of it was just fucking terrible. I ended up not doing anything, thank god.
     
    After that night, I sought help. I commited myself to a psychiatric hospital, and stayed there for 5 days. It was one of the most horrible experiences of my life yet it did end up being beneficial. The kinds of people there were absolutely fucking insane. My room mate was a schizo, but he was actually real cool. The first night I was there, a girl tried to hang herself. He paced about the room (it was about 1 in the morning?) and kept telling me to "go to bed bro, it's alright, don't worry". Anyways it was safe to say that I was the only person there who was... fully there. Even the staff were confused at first, asking if I was "new" there. Couldn't have shoes with laces so I wore raf velcros lol. Anyways those 4 days slapped some damn sense into me. I realized how much fucking worse people were off and why the fuck I was having so much trouble dealing with my depression. I left there with a feeling of schadenfreude and a bottle of prozac.
     
    Ever since then, I've been feeling better. Like, a lot better actually. It's a relief from going to thinking about not existing or not waking up or at the extremes, taking your own life every day to actually being happy for once. I couldn't remember the last time I was happy for absolutely no reason. Hopefully this might inspire some people to seek help, albeit hopefully less severe help.
  4. lol fair enough

    truth be told, I'm less pissed off at the girl who stayed over on Saturday and wouldn't fuck than the no-contact-interested-girl. she "had a boyfriend" "didn't want to be a shitty person" and was "on her period". last bit was enough to stop me in my tracks but damn girl how you going home with a strange dude you just met and not sexing them

    just trying to get my dick wet yo. living that human experience

     

    no hate jayrock but in all honesty that sounds suspect as fuck. you must've not brought out the freak in her or maybe your scent of despair turned her off.

  5. a lot of rappers these days talk about drugging women and fucking them or getting some other dus sloppy seconds and fucking her

     

    i mean, if you were so ballin wouldn't you rather enter the spot with some bzs nobody ever seen before? 

     

    like yo just picked up and liberated these two hoes from N. Korea, or Sudan, or yo just flew this bz outta serbia for the night. 

  6. was having one of the times of my life at my new companies christmas party when i was approached by two girls in the club (CWG/CI(ndian)G and was literally told that instead of fighting over a guy they thought it'd be better if i fucked them both. 

     

     

    …………………………………..didn't except. 

     

    + rep me for being a faithful boyfriend 

    neg me for being in a relationship

  7. I am in no way anywhere near a lot of you when it comes to ballin out. but it feels good to be headed up hill. not even a month ago was i in a shitty work environment making nothing and hour. i got ruled out of going to SEMA because my boss wanted to take his girl even though most of the shit in that booth was made by be. but now, a month later I'm being flown out to vegas, put up in a hotel and being told to go ahead and get what i want. 

  8. • Get in better shape (reach 200lbs) 
    • Take more trips (camping mostly) 
    • Pay off my debts 

    • Kop Jawnz
    • Photograph more

    • Read More
    • Tattoos 
    • New place

    • Make sure everyone close to me knows how much I appreciate them

    • Be solely about that life livin

     

    * hope everyone reaches their goals this year. feel free to add more as they come to you and to post pics when you reach them. Ball out; this is your thread

  9. ok so ya my internet brethren, 

     

    (I feel like this has been done before but i can't remember the thread but fuck it, its a new year anyways.)

     

     

    so heres the deal. was thinking this could be a thread where people post their goals, resolutions, etc and check back into the thread when they've accomplished any number of these goals and cross them out. 

     

    there is no goal or resolution too big or too small for this thread. if you plan on finishing uni in a specific time frame; post it. shooting for a new job or promotion; post it. want to sex more bzs or man bzs this year; post it. trying to kop that holy grail item; post it. want to quit smoking; post it. whatever the fuck you want. this thread is for people trying to make it out here and for people who like to see others make it. 

     

     

    posting before/after pics, reached goal pics, stuntin, flossin etc are all welcome. 

     

     

    its a new year. we need to mount up/re-up and ball out. 

     

     

    peace.

     

    (post goals as they come) 

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