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i have some beautiful cubensis golden caps wish i had a good camera to show you guys so gold never seen anything like it chilling in a nice jar in a safe nice and secure feels great so happy. yall need to fuck with 5htp serotonin is the shit. i took like 300mg~ of 5htp powder dissolved floating in water really last night and ~1.6g of these beautiful mushrooms last night and fuck. i feel like i went backwards in time. was a little too intense at points. lost control of my body took so much effort to exert control. never cried so much before. cried out all the water in my body and laughed uncontrollably for a good 45min. was awesome. anyone have any experience dosing 5htp before dosing some serotonergic agonists? (lsd, psliocybin, dmt, etc.)

i wish i could not exist do so many things over fuck what am i doing

i want to cry

just wish things werent so fucking complicated i wish the guild system still existed so i could just do that and not have to think about so much shit and figure it all out

i really need to do less vicarious shit

i wish i could get paid to smoke weed

that some people think it's "cool" to not contribute.

i dont think they get what the development of agriculture and specialization of labor or society or any of that even means

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@ mag. i feel you theres this one du i always see out front of mcdonalds asking for money every single day like just get a job man its obvious you have a lot of time on your hands maybe you should go inside and work at mcdonalds and then youd have money?

yo i would do what are you smoking i need to get a better fucking phone have my computer with me i just dont have a good enough camera to do these flowers justice. just feels like a waste to photograph them if it looks shitty. i love this plant so much. i am so thankful that this thing has been on earth for so long that all animals above mollusks and hydra use them except for insects i dont fuck with bugs.... they dont fuck with buds.... if you dont fuck with buds.... i dont fuck with you thats it. the end. im sorry. embrace the beauty of life or embrace the enternity of despair that exists within your mind. the hell in there is worse than anything that was ever written in a fucking book. yall need to fuck with 5htp. i am so lit right now. 100mg 5htp capsule. some nice 362 degrees farenheit vapor of beautful buds those resin filled with crystals. i feel like im in dream world right now. its 5:25pm saturday night im free from the matrix chilling out floating on life just high on life. feels fucking awesome. i wish everyone everything in the world was on my level at least right now. sun set. never felt more natural in my life. i want to cry because life is so beautiful. i could cry forever. i love you all. good vibes. yALL NEEED SOME 5HTP NOW....... FUCK WITH SEROTONIN

damn cheep im jelly

and @ koven lsd is a lot different than blow..... blow can induce psychosis (i believe the textbook name is like paranoid psychosis syndrome). on lsd it is way different not the dopaminergic psychosis like blow which really is not much different than mania that people with bipolar disorder experience. on lsd i just realized how see through some people are and how obvious their insecurity and mental addictions are. i guess im just sayin your lsd experience is not gonna be like a blow comedown psychosis. but ya if you're not feelin in the mood id say no.

last time i did lsd i kept geeking out on how everything is so mechanical in nature and how important information is (sup ray kurzweil). almost screamed in a mexican grocery store to block out an ad on the radio because i was freaking about advertisement being encoded in my brain and swaying my person and influencing it. i did lsa on new years. that was nice. real mild. felt mentally in control and was pickin up on vibes hard. morning glory seeds might be better to try first instead of lsd. see if you like the lsa first.

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maybe people say they don't like lsd because it made them realize how meaningless and completely arbitrary all aspects of their life are and that their life and ego or personality or w.e. was just a constructed image and that they are a product of the information they consumed. but imo realizing that makes you a better person. but i feel you koven, dopamine can really fuck with your head. the feeling of being a mental slave to chemicals in your brain is a bummer for sure

gravs definitely have unholy power

why never try acid? what horror stories?

i'd recommend it. it is a lot different than mushrooms. feels like brain is in defrag mode. locus coeruleus change in function is important to keep in mind too. stimuli is so important on acid. it is good if you have some serious thinking you need to do and are having trouble bringing all the information in your mind out

i feel like most of the problems people have is just not being educated on the effects and forgetting that they are on acid and lack of new stimuli so people get stuck in badvibes feedback loop and "its not working let me take more, oops i accidently just 5 tabs my first time"

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awesome investment so much shit you can do with it. you gotta cop a crock pot or slow cooker jawn too and you're set

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on 1ply maybe ive just had bad experiences with whatever brand that is purchased by public academic institutions in the states or maybe i just have a sensitive rectum either way i don't like it when my asshole bleeds

"i had to walk all the way across campus to get from my first class to my second and it took like 10 minutes. it sucked. i wish all my classes were closer so i wouldn't have to walk as much"

i hope that in 2012, people stop using the word swag so fucking much. everyone's saying it now. when I hear a soccer mom at starbuck's talking about swag, you know the word has been overused to fucking hell and back again.

ya i feel this and it is a shame none of them listen to lil b

"i started all the fucking trends"

ya good way to describe it

dmt is base material that the booms make internally into psilocybin or psilocin (spelling?)

the biggest thing when smoking it is just holding it in as long as possible, the machine is worth making too

i'd love to do some orally though and have a 2-3hr trip. if you take MAOIs it will be way more intense.

dmt is way cool though, you should feel real hot and hearing go out to a single tone before you blast off

people stuck in feedback loops of self reinforcing no thought supplemented with no thought chemicals who just put up no thought barriers to drown you out as soon as you begin to say anything that threatens them or implicates them. no one should tell you you are a decent person because you are not. refuse to listen to facts? go fuck yourself and die you were pretty firmly on the meaningless life path anyways get over your fucking self you are not special no one is special continue to rot your mind your body too your life had very little significance to begin with and you really set yourself up to fully erode all value you might have as a metacognitive human being die die die die if you are going to live like that at least be upfront with what you are doing fucking hypocrites scum of the earth the deepest hell is reserved for betrayers you do not even realize you have made yourself too fucking stupid to realize that you have made yourself too fucking stupid fucking addicted. benzodiazepines

salvia is cool it is interesting for sure but it is a little too weird for me and has no comfort feelings so i do not do it too often but salvia is cool. most intense hallucinations i've had from that plant.

dmt feels more like mushrooms(obv) comfort to me there is just that nice tryptamine stoney buzz and just feeling ok with the universe which is very nice and i like. i feel like it is way more coherent though. i.e. shamans on oral dmt with MAOI say that they are told what plants to heal people with and guided by the entities. salvia for me is always slightly scary and more like fuck what is going on and i feel like my essence has been split and cast in various places and i only recombine at the end. salvia for me is usually scary-weird or weird-weird where as dmt is beautiful-weird. dmt is great though in all doses. MAOIs take it to another level though.... also body buzz on DMT is way intense. like turning into metal, solidifying sort of. also i have yet to have a DMT experience this intense but from friends they have had way more intense experiences on DMT than salvia and completely coherent only mindfuck is like OMG i did not know i could see 4D objects or i am having an intense out of body experience or i am in a tunnel of fractals or cyberelves or something. DMT hallucinations feel more real to me. salvia is like brain is like durrr and the hallucinations feel very repitive and of little meaning more just plain mindfuck in surrealness. dmt is very different thought it feels super good.

anyways if you down with salvia you will love dmt

i get trolls doll vibe and actual troll vibe, makes sense she seems to be on a bridge i guess she didn't want to take a picture below it in front of her mirror

i don't get people who buy 1ply toilet paper instead of some nice charmin like damn what if you got rhea? and its not that hard to skimp on food or clothes or drugs to save up for... glad i have never been too poor to afford nice toilet paper

rice cooker is one of the best investments i've made

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i remember reading about a study(surveys) being done and most people said they bought a prius because they care about the environment and all that (or want to portray that) just the way they know and decide on expressing that through their $$$s is a prius aka uneducated consumers making poor decisions

this shit is crazy though, 2012 will be good year for understanding of the (human) brain: computers are insane

this article bout cannabinoids and eating disorders is cool, this is a thing(interview with chairman of bio department at university of colorado) all about what we know about cannabinoids, super interesting imo. first fact is that cannabinoids are found in all creatures above hydras and mollusks except for insects, i had no idea they were a whole neuromodulatory system either fuck yeah reads like the dude smokes a lot of pot

i like that too

also

chemicals cause people to do irrational things ---->> look at meth addicts

sex addiction is a documented thing, love is > sex:strong chemicals at work

@okayokay

shame to hear about your wife she really needs to get over herself, i feel for your kids. at least makes you want to fill the deficit

botox is hilarious i feel that some people don't understand that they are injecting muscle paralyzing stuff

i wonder how stiff the muscle is? would a cattle prod not be enough to make someones forehead muscles twitch?

should i feel bad for getting enjoyment from peoples poor decisions?

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laughing at "celebrities" > minstrel shows > torturing animals?

i love information

you sure raped him.

how do you know i have not raped him?

ever mix benzos and alch? you black out real easy, especially if you have never done them before.

even on just benzos you can black out

10mg clonazepam by itself is a sure black out for anyone who has never done it before

or maybe 3mg rohypnol or less

add alcohol and it is a guarantee

they'll be blacked out for a good bit at least 6hr of amnesia where one could be raped, (this is just from my personal experience i have not read any scholarly articles regarding the ideal benzo and dosage for a 6hr amnesia rape window)

was undecided if i wanted to put this here or in "pics that make you uncomfortable"

decided to put it here because it's just too ridiculous

i will elaborate

we're in my room. i just got back im real stoned. my roommate is playing skyrim. this kid is repetitively opening up the fridge door and slamming it over and over again. i tell him multiple times to stop fucking with door and just chill out and stop slamming shit. my roommate also adds a "stop fucking around". this kid says ok. does it again. i ask him why he feels the need to keep doing this shit. he says "idk because its there?" (for reference he is sitting in a chair by my rm's desk and i am in front of my desk in my chair we are about 3feet away from each other, prob less) i tell him that is not a good reason to do something. he responds with a hurrr or something, i pull out a pair of scissors from my desk and point them at his throat. i tell him that his neck is just there and this is probably less effort than opening and closing the freezer door and that if i used his logic then i might as well cut his fucking throat and at least then he would stop fucking with my property so i would actually be doing something productive. he got the message and stopped fucking with my fridge.

earlier he would always kick on the wall and it would be loud as fuck. i would complain to him multiple times to stop and he would always be like "lol ok its not that loud" (it was loud as fuck). so the next time he did it i went over and gave him a 2handed chop inbetween the shoulder blades. he continued to do it. so i went to his room and started choking him. now he doesn't do it at all.

this kid is the biggest simp ever and has no idea of personal space or boundaries or personal posessions. when he infringes on these i use plain words to tell him to stop when that does not work i resort to violence because it is simple and effective

other people probably think i am insane but everyone on the floor fucks with this kid. i would never steal any of his shit or tape his shit to the ceiling or anything like that. i just keep him in line when he steps out of line

and on the rape thing

so we are in the cafeteria. last day of the semester. it is me. my roommate. kid who lives next door. roommates exgf from ms/hs. we are conversing. some kid comes up and has the generic convo as follows with the girl

hey howd you do on that exam?

uh i think i did ok

man i got raped

oh ok

and then other shit i was not listening to because i was having this conversation with kid who lives next door

i dont think he knows what rape means

-???? why do you say that

well he says that exam raped him and i doubt that it actually raped him, he should just say he did poorly on it or got a low mark or something, not rape. that weakens the word rape and is also misusing the english language

-o ya i suppose you're right

well what about all the rape victims? him using rape in this context really delegitimatizes their use of the word and it is a word that should have power because rape is an extremely traumatic experience.

-ya that is true

ill make him know the actual meaning of rape that way in the future he doesnt misuse the word because he will fully understand what rape means

-???? what are you saying??? he doesnt even know you

thats good, i dont want him to know me i dont want him to expect anything, see we're a few feet away and he doesnt hear any of this he has no idea of what we're talking about. rape isnt something you can be prepared for

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If anyone were to ever do this to me, I would fucking hurt them. What is wrong with you?

i will elaborate

we're in my room. i just got back im real stoned. my roommate is playing skyrim. this kid is repetitively opening up the fridge door and slamming it over and over again. i tell him multiple times to stop fucking with door and just chill out and stop slamming shit. my roommate also adds a "stop fucking around". this kid says ok. does it again. i ask him why he feels the need to keep doing this shit. he says "idk because its there?" (for reference he is sitting in a chair by my rm's desk and i am in front of my desk in my chair we are about 3feet away from each other, prob less) i tell him that is not a good reason to do something. he responds with a hurrr or something, i pull out a pair of scissors from my desk and point them at his throat. i tell him that his neck is just there and this is probably less effort than opening and closing the freezer door and that if i used his logic then i might as well cut his fucking throat and at least then he would stop fucking with my property so i would actually be doing something productive. he got the message and stopped fucking with my fridge.

earlier he would always kick on the wall and it would be loud as fuck. i would complain to him multiple times to stop and he would always be like "lol ok its not that loud" (it was loud as fuck). so the next time he did it i went over and gave him a 2handed chop inbetween the shoulder blades. he continued to do it. so i went to his room and started choking him. now he doesn't do it at all.

and on the rape thing

so we are in the cafeteria. last day of the semester. it is me. my roommate. kid who lives next door. roommates exgf from ms/hs. we are conversing. some kid comes up and has the generic convo as follows with the girl

hey howd you do on that exam?

uh i think i did ok

man i got raped

oh ok

and then other shit i was not listening to because i was having this conversation with kid who lives next door

i dont think he knows what rape means

-???? why do you say that

well he says that exam raped him and i doubt that it actually raped him, he should just say he did poorly on it or got a low mark or something, not rape. that weakens the word rape and is also misusing the english language

-o ya i suppose you're right

well what about all the rape victims? him using rape in this context really delegitimatizes their use of the word and it is a word that should have power because rape is an extremely traumatic experience.

-ya that is true

ill make him know the actual meaning of rape that way in the future he doesnt misuse the word because he will fully understand what rape means

-???? what are you saying??? he doesnt even know you

thats good, i dont want him to know me i dont want him to expect anything, see we're a few feet away and he doesnt hear any of this he has no idea of what we're talking about. rape isnt something you can be prepared for

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kriss kross is who comes to mind for me i know i've heard their music being played in at least ten hundred thousand locations in the united states, that should help you out for your marketing research

i love lil b

lil b changed my life

related superconfession: I've had issues w/ substance abuse and self-medicating that have to do w/ regulating anxiety. I am over it now tho (my angst lol). during that time I would actively tell ppl oh I have anxiety issues, but i can fake confidence. i'm having a hard time confessing that i probably made my problems all up. I rationalized that the world labeled my introvert/contemplative self as detrimental and something that needed to be fixed. so i did w/ the droogz

i feel you on this. it feels great to know that brain chemistry is w.e. you want it to be, there is no standard. and the people who are extremely gregarious and rush into things etc. (the norm that would then make contemplative and introvert as something to be changed) are people who probably have naturally high levels of dopamine (aka act like they on blow all the time). introvert/contemplative is great for today was not for ice age but we don't live in cavemen times anymore so fuck that caveman brain function. nothing needs to be fixed or change if you don't want it to. fucking pharmaceuticals