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Problem with dating to me was if they are worth it letting your guard down??

The only way to know is to go on that first one.

After that don't get all heavy on them. And pick a strong minded one , one that doesn't go whining along.. Or you both be getting miserable

Probably good advice.  I just mean that I still get bouts of depression and the anxiety can make me feel generally afraid so I'm worried about dating someone and if I would tell them and all of that.  Also makes me kind of nervous because a lot of the girls I'm into are sort of badass haha.

And to the conversation up there, the hating everyone can definitely be a sign of depression and I feel like I'm back to that again. Last year I was pretty depressed/anxious and didn't realize it so I just kind of acted like an ass.  After hitting a super low point I've put a ton of work in bettering myself and trying to become more confident but now that I have a bit of the self esteem back I feel like I'm back to the negative/passive aggressive feeling and I've just been feeling angry all of the time. 

I feel like a lame for posting in here so often but w/e. What have everyone's experiences dating with depression and anxiety? I've been hesitant to do it since I just feel shitty randomly and don't feel confident in acting as "the man" if that makes sense.  I guess the best way is to just do it like I have with other things and see how it goes/pretend to be confident. 

I was doing a lot better and felt like I was finally building up some self esteem and toned down a lot of my anxiety and lonely feelings and then they just came back for no reason at all. Shitty

Journalism major here so this thread is right down my alley. I'm all about these:

Currently writing with a Zebra F-402 rn. Pretty happy with it but hopefully I'll eventually upgrade to something next level. 

i race road pretty much every weekend from march/april until august/september. will probably get into cross this year assuming i've got the cheddar to get a bike. i started riding a hybrid as exercise in high school to lose weight. really enjoyed it and loved the health benefits so i bought a cheap road bike (fuji 1.0). started riding with the local recreational group ride, eventually graduated to the hammerfest ride, made friends with the local racers, joined a race club, came to school and got really into collegiate cycling and the rest is history. if you're at college definitely see if the school has a club, great way to get into racing.

Sounds like you took a kind of similar route as to what I would like to do.  Started just commuting to not need my car and loose weight (used to be pudgy and have lost a lot of it).  Might be worth getting a roadie and trying to find a local group to ride with that's not super competitive and see if I like it from there. 

^^ do this:

BUT

1) you will have to take off the lower half of the pocket (stitching) before you start to repair those pockets and reattach afterward (this is easier than it might seem). Your pocket has hidden rivets and this will secure it in place so don't worry about how much original stitching you take off to get to the hole BUT if you had bartacks you would not take off that stitching.

2) you probably won't be using a dedicated darning machine to do these repairs. If this is the case, I suggest you hand sew a light piece of fabric in place of the hole. Like Andrew shows in the in the video: make sure that the original denim hangs correctly before attempting the darn. For rips without much missing denim: you could get away without extra piece of fabric and just hand sew rip together.

3) Then with a freeform setting* on your sewing machine follow Andrew's steps in video above. * That is, the foot of your sewing machine should not secure the fabric from above and the traction bit from below should not be engaged.

ALSO: practice on scrap before getting to (3). You will want to get a feel for darning and adjust the tension of your machine before you start.

What all will I need? I don't really have any supplies. I know the art studio that I take photo classes has a sewing machine available that I could probably use.  Is there anywhere I could get scrap pieces of denim?

And worst case scenario if I don't have the supplies/skills/patience to do it myself is there anywhere I could send them to get them fixed?

Dumb question but how did you guys get "into cycling".  I pretty much just ride to class, around town, and on the trails on my fg and I've gotten a bit more interested in riding more seriously.  I don't play any sports or anything so I figured I should find some kind of active passion.  Do a ny of you race, ride intensely, do cyclocross or anything of that nature?

My weird guys are slowly deteriorating.  Are there any good links on how to fix this? Or anywhere I could find advice on what to do? I don't have any sewing experience but it would be nice trying to fix these myself before sending them out

Any more info on the UU tech blazer? Shoot me a pm

Anyone else underwhelmed by Q's new album?  Still some goodies though. This is my favorite 

my first year of college has really... displaced me.  

 

after one night "greening out" on bud, i had a major identity crisis and since I haven't felt the same.  i've become immersed in my head, and very depersonalized.

 

i was pretty depressed for a fair bit, starting 2014.  I've been going to CAPs, and while it helps, I dip into bad thoughts about myself in relation to others, the world around me, among other things.  Sometimes I have delusions of grandeur.

 

it feels as if all of my childhood and adolescence, I was building up these sentiments and thoughts, and come college, it all came pouring out.

Just saw this post. This is very similar to my freshman year.  I let it build up for a few months and let it get really bad.  Make sure you recognize it early so you don't get worse. I just sort of broke myself down mentally and didn't talk about it to anyone.  Been trying to gradually get rid of the worthless and inferior thoughts but it has taken a ton of work. 

when you get something published or have something go your way - do you get a sense of accomplishment/achievement? it's sometimes hard to aknowledge your own successes no matter how small or big they are. if you can find a way to allow yourself to feel good about your chievements/successes then that is a huge step forward.

 

talking to the schools counselor might be of some help. or just talking with anyone you trust about it. sometimes we just need a reality check and we see something in a different way and it helps us feel better about ourselves.

Starting to get some sense of achievement back when I get a good story published or things like that.  It just blows because over the past couple of years I let my self esteem take a 180.  Getting it back a bit but I don't know when I will feel content with myself.  I've already bettered myself a ton but I just can't feel good about myself and I always think of things I'm not good at (sports of whatever) or in my head think of the things I "Can't do" (trying to break out of this pattern of thinking). Lots of feelings of inferiority compared to anyone else and worthlessness.  I used to be super content with myself and was content with being a journalist and working on photos but now I always feel like I need to be good at other things, but even then I feel like I will always feel like I'm missing something.

Maybe I'll take up competitive cycling or some shit.

what's the line between being in a temporary slump or being full blown depressed?

 

i've been in a slump the last few days. i feel disconnected from my family and friends. i want to be alone, but i want to have attention from other people

 

i've been on vacation from school. i'm hoping that immersing myself in schoolwork or s/t will distract me enough to put me in a neutral state

Everyone gets those feelings and gets in slumps.  You just need to be careful and see if it persists, especially if you start losing interests in things or feel your self esteem go down.  I just ignored it at first, acted obnoxious and like an asshole, then it all built up and it was "full blown depressed" as you said.  Make sure you have someone you can talk to and like I said, if it builds up don't ignore it.

I've made a ton of progress since I started up school again and gotten rid of a ton of my anxiety and I feel like my depression has gone way down.  But I still can't get my self esteem back and it feels like I'm never going to be happy or like myself again.

Since I've started working through this whole thing I've done a ton of shit: gotten articles published, gotten better with photography, learned a lot about bike mechanics and what not, gotten more involved on campus, etc, but I still have thoughts of not being good at anything and just can't get my self esteem back. Shitty 

I'm at Mizzou haha. J-school tho

Is cheap housing relatively accessible in pdx?  Starting to plan out where I'm going to apply for summer internships and I definitely can't afford new york 

Is this the right place to ask about tents?  I haven't bought one in years and have just borrowed friends but I'm hoping to camp pretty regularly once it warms up.

My weird guys are close to the 6 month mark and I'm about to give them their first wash.  They ended up stretching more than I anticipated and the waist it about an inch or two too large.  Would it be worth it to give them a warm wash or would that just misalign the honeycombs and other fading? 

What have your experiences been with alcohol?  I got to visit my best friend in Louisiana this weekend and was in a super good mood and stoked to go out. Drank a ton of whiskey before the bar and I don't remember what point but I had the biggest mood swing and felt super shitty. I don't know if it was the alcohol specifically as far as spiking up my emotions too fast or even negating antidepressants or if it had to do more with that I've been feeling bad lately and finally got to see my friends and then just kind of crashed emotionally. 

I've made a lot of progress though as far as dealing with depression/anxiety.  Keeping busy, surrounding yourself with people who are open minded and don't put you down, exploring new interests, forcing yourself to do things that makes you anxious/uncomfortable, reading a lot, writing, watching good movies, and having someone that you can tell everything to are all really helpful, at least for me.  I had a complete loss of all interests, rock bottom self esteem, and anxiety so bad I felt like I was going to mess everything up and I was afraid to do everything.  I still have a ton of progress to make but I feel like I've made myself a lot better the past few months.  What experiences has everyone else had?

Also, Scott Stossel, the editor of The Atlantic has had severe anxiety for a long time and done a ton of cool writing and research about it.  I haven't gotten to read his book yet but I'm hoping too soon.  Here is his article that was in this month's issue and an ama he did for reedit:

http://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2014/01/surviving_anxiety/355741/

http://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/1utet0/i_am_scott_stossel_and_im_doing_an_ama_about_the/

Picked up a pair of RRL Washington Boots today! Any recommendations on what (or if) I should treat them with? Going to wear them in the snow quite a bit 

Picked up a pair of RRL Washington Boots today! Any recommendations on what (or if) I should treat them with? Going to wear them in the snow quite a bit 

RRL Washington Boots and some film 

People were responding like it was blasphemous when I said I haven't read this yet so here I go 

Can anyone recoomind where I can find some good photo prints online?

I've had good luck emailing my favorite photographers.

Does anyone have good examples for living in a small rooms or spots I could find inspiration? I'm in school and pretty much just have my room to control and my room is super small.  I've pretty much just got furniture that I got for free in there and my mattress on my floor because I don't want to spend a bunch of money until I have an idea of what I want to do.  I've looked around a bit on apartment therapy so any other good sites or photos would be sweet.  I'm trying to find good stuff on living in small spaces as well because I have a lot of things and not a lot of space.

Going to be in the 504 next week. I used to live there but wanted to see if there was anything I should do that hasn't been mentioned in here before.  Any good book shops besides Maple Street? I'm assuming there's still nothing special for shopping and I could never find a bike shop down there that had anything cool