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social anxiety/GAD is a first world problem, you aint awkward and you hustlin when the familia is starving.

freecat your location says Sweden but i swear it said Paris or France a bit before? anyway I wanted to ask you about Scandinavian countries and pizza, more specifically frozen pizza. apparently it's real real popular in norway, i dont know you know anything about that lol.

sorry evil-crayon-san! i beg forgiveness

this one is kind of straddling korn/pro model, but oh well.

1. one time i was at mall w/ girl and a homie called. I didnt pick it up.

i'm walking around wit her and i see him -_____-

2. in hawaii it's legal to ride in the back of a pick-up truck. yesterday i was stuck in traffic, behind a truck with 4 guys hanging out in the back, staring straight at me. omg hella awkward. i went thru the phases: pretend to play on phone, look out window, look at side, etc, but everytime traffic moved I had to look forward. right into those eyes...

http://vimeo.com/18154197

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQ19A2GFaBM

gettoasty: i know how you feel man. when you awkward/anxious all the time, the times you aint is pure euphoria

related superconfession: I've had issues w/ substance abuse and self-medicating that have to do w/ regulating anxiety. I am over it now tho (my angst lol). during that time I would actively tell ppl oh I have anxiety issues, but i can fake confidence. i'm having a hard time confessing that i probably made my problems all up. I rationalized that the world labeled my introvert/contemplative self as detrimental and something that needed to be fixed. so i did w/ the droogz

I am very nice, harmonious, and tactful. Because the nature of my nature/nurture (lol) environments, my outward personality is quite self deprecating, play dumb, humble, and yielding to others, when it's no big deal, ie everyday conversations.

In my head, I know exactly what I'm doing though. currently some of my colleagues take me for a bitchass and actively calling me out as a dumb bitchass. When it comes to these manners - of personal pride and conflict, or areas I am passionate about, I am like a different person and I don't back down.

although my super-ego feels bad for putting bitches in their place, my id is supremely pleased. I am now aware of how aware i am. it kind of scares me to think i might be manipulative, a sociopathic, or just Asian.

It seems my sarcasm/satirical slant in these here parts is not appreciated (3)

I've been on like neg-rep train. neg begets negs. hahaha it's cool though, all an learning experience (0)

My friends and I are throwing an live mix EDM party in the VIP of most scene, fobulous bar here in the city on the Christmas Eve.

Got the invite on facebook tonight, officially stoked!!

~~~~~~~~~~~FESTIVAL GUIDELINES:~~~~~~~~~~~

OK Purses or Clutches

OK Camera's

OK Cell Phones

OK Sunglasses

OK Hats

OK Vicks

OK Lighters

OK Cigarettes

OK Chapstick and Lipgloss

OK Glowsticks

OK Glowing/Illuminated Costumes or Jewelry

OK Packs of Gum

OK good vibes

OK friends

P.S.: Champagne will be popped, its gonna be cray

I went to a very conservative elementary school, and in hindsight, this was made even more apparent by the fact that I knew about the prim and proper attitude while in school. I don't remember how old I was in the 3rd grade; I was a nice kid, quiet and easy-going. Everyone was all kinds of awkward but it wasn't about bullying yet. Sure there were calm kids and slightly excitable kids. But overall class and recess were smooth with nothing worth noting, just well behaved, nice kids. No one really stood out. I didn't raise my hand to answer the teacher, I was unremarkable.

one day this girl named Sherri, brought a Halloween costume to class. now sherri is the kind of person you look at, and despite your best efforts, you form a snap judgement about. And it's a negative one. I didn't especially care for her, the way she talked, or the way she acted. she wasn't like the other kids.

recess hit and I was at the door waiting for a friend to come, as he sat in the back of the class. Sherri put the mask on and ran in front of me, so where she was right in front of my face. I smiled, and she jumped and went "ooga booga" with her head moving from side to side. For two seconds she did this.

Then I punched her in the face.

Looking back these years, I am certain I really did not know why. Really. She was not crazy or annoying, just a little loud. A reaction you might call it. I had no choice. I smacked the dumb bitch.

She started crying. I almost felt puzzled, as I had no idea why she was crying. Of course I knew, but it seemed I had disconnected myself from the action. I comforted her, and as the teacher and principle and counselors descended on me, I was really helpful in facilitating an appropriate punishment for me. I had to write a letter to her parents and her, as well as the other kids.

So I wrote that I was sorry and I felt really bad about my actions and how I should think more about consequences. The letter wrote itself practically. I got up in front of the class and read the letter. I was 7 years old and said I was sorry for hitting her.

one of the most fucked up things I've ever said (to the class and sherri) was that i was sorry. Because the simple truth is I wasn't. and I'm sure a lot of kids and teachers felt that sherri got she deserved.

this thrad disappeared! where yall at yoyo guys! no homo, just yoyo.

playing w/ my "888" and JK today

Wow we owned the same cars lol WTF.

My Z got like 14mpg... horrible interior. Only thing going for it was it was fast like a nascar nascar... and the sound system

Some of my old E46 (and inappropriately bad pix)

After that I owned a stock white 350Z, and now a stock E90 328i. So no pix ;/

i'd like to share an excerpt from some creative writing i like to do, just to get some feedback, on my (what i think) unique view of my home. thanks

we have lift. we have flora and fauna. we are fawned on and fond of it. it's hawaii. the romantic destination, the honeymoon capital of the world, where the state bird is a construction crane and the roads paved with lava. driving from the capital, honolulu, to the north shore of oahu is just like driving from san francisco to oakland except it takes three times as long. we have fresh papaya and avocado. the lifestyle here is laidback, the women stuck up, and many young adults feature tattoos of various chinese and japanese characters and drive thirty to forty thousand dollar entry level luxury cars, paid for by family. we feature the nation's largest (and best) crystal meth problem. local news call it an “epidemic†and they launch a series of investigative reports detailing addicts and their toll on loved ones. for fun, everyone hangs out at starbucks and jamba juice and smokes weed in the parking lots or beaches. many responsible adults work two or three jobs to continue to pay the mortgage on the home their parents or grandparents purchased; a home that often houses three generations and relatives thereof. in terms of work - my friends and i, largely, try not to. one thing we all do as locals, however, is laugh at tourists.

for the geography student there are more than a thousand islands spread out over the central pacific that make up my dear home state. the biggest comprise the main eight islands; if you are not hawaiian, seven islands. if one is leprosy avoidant, then six islands; if not bombing things in the military, five islands. if you like civilization and that “hawaiian shit†then 3 islands; and finally, if a bustling cosmopolitan metropolis with urban buildings juxtaposed onto surreal azure, complete with bad traffic, crime, and multi-billion dollar commerce in aloha shirts is what you are looking for, then only one city matters: honolulu, on the island of oahu.

Are you guys serious? Hawaii is not all that. Great place to vacation I'm sure with the hot beaches and hotter btchs, but you don't wanna be stuck here.

Lots of people quit good paying corporate jobs, say they aren't happy and come here and work two entry level service jobs (with tips). They can surf on their off days, hit up that chronic, or just enjoy the sun - which apparently makes some people really happy. They find themselves here, happy and single. For couples though, tis a different story.

Due to tourism being so huge here, overall Hawaii's unemployment is lower than the nation average as it's traditionally pretty easy to get an entry level service job with cash money tips. LOL. I studied tourism in college, fkn A, and once learned and jaded, cannot go back.

I'm not so into the beach, surf, and all that though. I'm local, and yall can ask me anything about living here yall.

edit: wrong thread lol

www.vistaprint.com

comes recommended by a friend mine who works in HR.

currently here http://marblehornets.wikidot.com/

Related to the Slenderman Mythos (http://creepypasta.w...wiki/Slenderman) some scanning of the marblehornets wiki will lead you to certain links and info... but i'm going to treat it as a supplement to the involved Youtube channels

that's the first entry. watch away. creepy by the later entries i hear.

EDIT

okay this shit is officially creeping the fuck out of me

Me too man. I'm on 20... I can feel my pulse quicken, breathing faster, and when ________ in Entry__ I seriously sit up and exclaim "What The Fuck!"