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@gettoasty word up brotha, though when me and new girl started dating one of the first things we talked about was past relationships and she already knew that i was real fucked up from it- yes, i have a feeling if she did find out i still had all these tucked away feelings for my ex and was considering getting back with her she would immediately dump me and i'd end up being that dude who'd call her "the one that got away."

@julzkind respect! i mean i definitely thought about how difficult it would be to rebuild a relationship that has gone to hell and back numerous times but do you always choose the easiest route that's presented to you? i know as vague and cliche as this may sound but relationships are something you have to work had at to make work, no?

the (ex) girlfriend and i broke up sometime last year after being together for a few years. after being broken up for about a week or so i realized it sucked to be without her. i tried re initiating the relationship with her and she started to sob and told me she couldn't and just wanted to be single. we've been on/off throughout this whole time of our relationship and we kept on hanging out because it was real comfortable and natural for us though it had no label. this whole period of unofficial hanging time she started to feel more sexually distant towards me and i later found out that she had been fucking this stoner dude she met at school and was friends with. i was hanging out with her still trying to win her back for another month or so even after i had found out. eventually she told me she wanted to give this dude a shot because she had never been with anybody else just to "see where it went" then she told me we had to stop talking.

the binge drinking began as soon as i found out she had been sleeping with this other dude and it went on for 3 or 4 months straight, every. single. day. one day a few months later i received an e-mail from her with all this content she had saved of things from blogs to quotes that pretty much had all the same theme of "hey, i miss you". we go out to lunch a day later and talk about what's been going on in both our lives. currently she was still dating this dude and i was hanging out with a few chicks and i could tell she still had deep feelings for me as we've been dating for a few years. we ended up both making out, crying, and promised to hang again soon. a few days later we meet up and she's real troubled looking, i ask her what's wrong and being a girl she obviously says the typical "nothing". eventually i persuade her to tell me what's up and found out she had gotten knocked up by the other dude and me stupidly still being completely in love with this chick agree to stay with her through the abortion and get back together. she grabbed all the stuff from dudes house and a month later or something had the abortion. she was completely non-sexual with me this entire time and of course i'm a guy, i need to fuck, but i resisted and became really supportive because of her condition. another month had passed after the abortion she started getting really into feminism and getting all miss I.N.D.E.P.E.D.E.N.T. do you know what i mean? (haha) so i decide to just say fuck it try and move on, date more girls, fuck girls, whatever i had to do to occupy myself and get over her. she didn't want to lose me as a "friend" so she wanted to hang out at times but once she found out i was dating other girls she flipped out and went back to the other dude and was telling me all these made up stories (maybe even real, who knows) about shit they did just to say to me with intention of hurting me and at this point i completely cut her off.

months later, again she sends me another e-mail saying similar shit from the last one. currently i'm dating an amazing girl who treats me well but i figure i'd go out to lunch with her because she's going through a death in her family and i still care about the girl and can't just blow her off at this low point in her life regardless of how emotionally draining our last encounters were. everything is going well and she asks me if i'm dating anyone and of course, being honest with her i say yes, i tell her a little bit about the girl i'm dating and then immediately i see the jealousy surface on her face. she's single and she seemed hoping that i was single and in some fairy tale imagination she has she says she would have gave me a chance again if i was single. old feelings definitely resurfaced and i lost my composure and kind of fell into the old carousel of how we are when we used to hang out. she tells me she's still kind of seeing the dude that knocked her up but is disgusted with his lifestyle. dumb ass bitch it was already obvious from the beginning that the dude was a straight loser and it took you this long to start realizing that the dude is a dead end?

now i'm tore in between the two options i have- date this amazing girl i've been seeing for a few months or go back to a fixer upper relationship with a girl i could see myself ending up with?

if only i ever took the advice i give to people.