bluebear

Thanks Toasty, this helps quite a bit.

I've been very much thinking of things to do in my spare time when not with her so I could keep myself busy, and I feel like I've been bumming around too much. Need to keep my mind occupied.

@bluebear: Man, I know what you mean. The kind of friends my girl hangs out with are completely different from me. (Generally just close friends, but they're very varied. All like to party together) And I'm not all too much of a drinker/party-goer myself so it's a bit different. I feel like I'm not as fun/can't be as fun as them. (I'm also 19 years old and she's celebrating her 21st today. Don't have a fake ID, but I'll be with her for the whole day) But, I'm trying my best to move past these thoughts and be fun despite being a bit different from all of that.

that.

and since you're 19 and she's turning 21....fuccccckk, du. thats the only day to celebrate drinking/partying.

Feeling the same way right now dovo.

I haven't been in a relationship in a long while, and now I'm with a girl that I feel like I would love to be with for a long long while.

But the thing is I always have a self-deprecating thought that I'm not good enough.

And I constantly over-think and have thoughts that she might cheat on me, or be bored of me. (She goes out with her friends a lot, parties a bit, etc..)

this is exactly how im feeling. i'm not dating her yet, but its that feeling (and something else) that is stopping me from asking. I keep asking myself why is she hanging out with a guy like me because im not the same style of guys she hangs out with (azn frat dudes). Although I am older than them by like 3-4 years, i think she'll just get bored of me. And then i have thoughts that maybe she thinks i got money or something (i do drive a nice car, nice clothes, etc.etc., but by no means RICH AT ALL) and that's the only thing she is interested. im paranoid and crazy and stupid to think like this, but i have evidence to prove that might be true.

i haven't been in a relationship in so long that the whole concept scares the living fuck out of me (last one was fucked). been dating this girl for sometime now and I'm just scared my insecurities are going to fuck things up. plus I'm scared that since things tend to fuck up in my life that I'm headed down the same path.

fuck man. i can't figure out how to stop this shit.

I feel the same, but plus more. I have this dilemma whether I should commit to this girl or not. Part of it is because I feel insecure, not being in relationship for awhile, but the main thing is that I may move away for grad school and that is making me depressed. Finally found someone I really like, but i just dont want to move away so soon. And not only is that making me depressed, but i'm starting to have cold feet whether I should go to grad school/stay in the field. I don't know why its hitting me of all of a sudden, but I feel lost. all of this is making me look weak, and i wish she knew so it doesn't seem like i'm not interested.

but even if i do commit, id feel insecure, self doubt that i'm not the right person for her. at times i wonder why she hangs out with me because i dont fit her lifestyle. it hurts so much, but it feels like its just not meant to be....