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Feeling the same way right now dovo.
I haven't been in a relationship in a long while, and now I'm with a girl that I feel like I would love to be with for a long long while.
But the thing is I always have a self-deprecating thought that I'm not good enough.
And I constantly over-think and have thoughts that she might cheat on me, or be bored of me. (She goes out with her friends a lot, parties a bit, etc..)
this is exactly how im feeling. i'm not dating her yet, but its that feeling (and something else) that is stopping me from asking. I keep asking myself why is she hanging out with a guy like me because im not the same style of guys she hangs out with (azn frat dudes). Although I am older than them by like 3-4 years, i think she'll just get bored of me. And then i have thoughts that maybe she thinks i got money or something (i do drive a nice car, nice clothes, etc.etc., but by no means RICH AT ALL) and that's the only thing she is interested. im paranoid and crazy and stupid to think like this, but i have evidence to prove that might be true.
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i haven't been in a relationship in so long that the whole concept scares the living fuck out of me (last one was fucked). been dating this girl for sometime now and I'm just scared my insecurities are going to fuck things up. plus I'm scared that since things tend to fuck up in my life that I'm headed down the same path.
fuck man. i can't figure out how to stop this shit.
I feel the same, but plus more. I have this dilemma whether I should commit to this girl or not. Part of it is because I feel insecure, not being in relationship for awhile, but the main thing is that I may move away for grad school and that is making me depressed. Finally found someone I really like, but i just dont want to move away so soon. And not only is that making me depressed, but i'm starting to have cold feet whether I should go to grad school/stay in the field. I don't know why its hitting me of all of a sudden, but I feel lost. all of this is making me look weak, and i wish she knew so it doesn't seem like i'm not interested.
but even if i do commit, id feel insecure, self doubt that i'm not the right person for her. at times i wonder why she hangs out with me because i dont fit her lifestyle. it hurts so much, but it feels like its just not meant to be....
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that.
and since you're 19 and she's turning 21....fuccccckk, du. thats the only day to celebrate drinking/partying.