ohsnap

getting let go recently from my first job (finance in nyc) out of college has been a deeply unsettling, incredibly humbling, and almost carthartic experience.

 

i'm currently reassessing my entire career trajectory and actively making moves towards the only other industry in which i thrived. unemployment has lit the fire under my ass.

 

if anything, it's made me even more grateful to sufu fam who've helped me along the way (a massive thank you to spaghettini, shufon, tombrown, djrajio, fycus, dovo, dabestspoona).

 

8 demoralizing months later, i finally copped a job.

getting let go recently from my first job (finance in nyc) out of college has been a deeply unsettling, incredibly humbling, and almost carthartic experience.

 

i'm currently reassessing my entire career trajectory and actively making moves towards the only other industry in which i thrived. unemployment has lit the fire under my ass.

 

if anything, it's made me even more grateful to sufu fam who've helped me along the way (a massive thank you to spaghettini, shufon, tombrown, djrajio, fycus, dovo, dabestspoona).

the question that i've always wondered: does anybody love me?

 

i told my mom i loved her

 

she told me i didn't know how much she loved me (for the first time in 21 years)

 

those who know me will understand how significant these words are to me

yea man choose a real major then hate yourself for the rest of your life cause you chose a "real major" instead of one you enjoyed

so, you can't enjoy a "real" major?

so, what you major in will determine "the rest of your life"?

please enlighten me.

mocha/caramel black women

whisky (neat)

taking care of my 9yo cousin and teaching her not to become as fucked up as me

collection of sade cassettes

heavy wools

well-tailored suits

jessie ware

oliver peoples glasses

the song, "cashin' out"

american spirits

lebanese cuisine

juicy j's voice

my inability to face personal demons

fucking around with cwg's

thievery corporation's earlier work

brian de palma films

that euphoria you feel when your hard work begets success

coping with history of abuse

receiving 2am "what r u doin?" drunk texts

quarter-life crises

both dimples (smile and back) on my girl

the genius use of textures and varying shades of one color (e.g. grey, blue) in a fit

hell hath no fury like a woman scorned...

...especially when you shoot your jizzim in her eye.

copped all those books from mcnally jackson in nyc, as well as other stuff for 72virgins' care package. beads by brrybnds, btw. paper used as newspaper (to mitigate any throwing; thought this was rather obvious).

didn't want to have to post this, but i get hate for trying to be nice. funny how that works, no hate towards you, hall of vame.

doublefudge, your package is on its way.

This might belong in superawkward. So the beez came over last night after she was out with some girlfriends drinkin and we really hit it hard. Things got really hot and heavy, and the sex was really intense and she was super into it so I finished in her. She literally froze as soon as she figured out, got off of me, and then without saying a word grabs a towel from my room and wraps it around her. She walked straight outta my room without saying and word and goes into the bathroom. 5 min later she comes outta the bathroom and doesn't say a word to me. At this point I can tell shes pretty mad so I ask her whats up. She responds "really...? you aren't even drunk". To my surprise, I didn't realize that is only acceptable to do when drunk. Doesn't say a word to me the rest of the night.

Now don't get me wrong here, I understand that some girls hate getting a deposit but is it really worth losing your shit over? No this girl is not paranoid and yes she is on the pill. I talked to her a little bit today she is still being a little weird. What is going on? hahah

choke her.

nepenthes floral (tri-colored roses) shirt with black polka dots

miscellaneous pocket squares/bandanas/scarves from eg/nepenthes

it should come as no surprise that i admire nepenthes and the many brands it has fostered under its umbrella (eg, needles, sonic lab, nepenthes, fwk, intermediates, south2west8, workaday, soloist (yes, takahiro was a nepenthes designer in the earlier days), as well as the collaborations/pop-up shops). the ethos of the brand and the people behind it are just a few of the many reasons.

eg fw12 railroader jacket (indigo)

eg fw10 bedford jacket (black wool, lined)

boutta shut this topic down.

brb.

(shout to the homie, spaghetti)

turned 21 yesterday. so funnyz.

damn, last night was trill

IM STILL UP

i am severely depressed.

i desperately chase something i have no major interest in.

pretenses, facades, and expectations both rule and ruin my life.

glad you got it alright, bru.

did you eat one of the other panda snack boxes already? haha.

back working in fashion

shoutouttothosewhoknowwhereiworkat

package sent

~ when i die, bury me inside the coochie, mane ~

rip

this has me reconsidering what i was going to do (the same thing).

My gf is full of hatred. How do I stop this..

choke her.

registration extended to wednesday (7/25).

if you haven't sent an email, please do so.

still (unsurprisingly) directionless in my career

glasses of scotch every night

making guap in the meantime

guess i'll wipe my tears away with these hunna dolla billz

few more days to the deadline.

get in on this.

me and scottm

bringing back birks

brb