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January 25, 2014

sometimes it takes me 6months+ to figure out if i want a certain piece or not. most of the time it's more like the allure of having the piece rather than owning it actually. so if i still want it after a considerable amount of time then i'll cop. i guess i'm kinda weird like that

January 25, 2014

anxiety is one of many symptoms of depression

January 22, 2014

if you feel depressed the best way to break the downward spiral is to just do something.

it doesn't matter how small or insignificant it might seem at first. try and learn how to appreciate the small victories in your day to day life. like getting up early and going out for a 10 minute walk around the block to get some breakfast or just the simple act of getting up early. it might sound kind of silly but actually noticing these small things can build up self confidence that most people with depression lack. finding out that you can "actually do things" and finding out they actually aren't as mundane or exhausting as you had initially thought can be an empowering feeling.

granted you won't turn into super productive optimistic person overnight or after completing "10 challenges". Patience is a virtue and when you aim to climb out of your depression because you are literally sick of it then you will need it more than ever.

during my therapy in the hospital i learned that simply changing your mindset and outlook on life and telling yourself everything ain't that hard is a near impossible task. while it may be true these thoughts express exactly what is impossible being in the depressive phase. life or social sictuations are really hard because they seem impossible from the start. just telling yourself it ain't that hard will just lead to a negative feedback loop where you find out that it was actually too hard to tackle the social situation (just as an example)

so yeah just ask yourself what is fun to you or what seemed fun to you. if you like bikes then go for a spin and get out the 4 walls surrounding you or try something else like drawing a picture, or maybe making pancakes. treat yourself.

January 16, 2014

early access beta - if you want to support the devs you cop now

January 16, 2014

who knows maybe she really is a kind retard

January 10, 2014

woopsie

January 10, 2014

living with this illness/condition has shown me one thing - while i was in the clinic i realized how many different faces depression has. the wide range of how it expresses itself is staggering. some people become introverted and pull back from all contact to other people - others can never stop talking and are super extroverted and want to be liked by everyone and sacrifice themselves for the sake of others. others spend money on thigns they dont really need just to make themselves feel better for a short time (yeah we all know what that feels like )

the term "burn-out" is made up by the business world to avoid the word depression. every doctor/therapist i have talked to always confirmed that there is no such thing as a burn-out. the symptoms of a burn-out all get categorized under depression.

if you are young and have depression and you realize it consider yourself lucky. many people don't really figure out what is wrong with themselves and keep going on with their lives until they are in their mid 40's to 50's where they finally don't have the energy anymore to keep going and their entire life seems hollow and a waste. so if you can figure out what is wrong with your current situation and seek help at a relatively young age your life will look much brighter in the future.

there is a heartwarming comic book by Mathew Johnstone

Living with a Black Dog: His Name Is Depression

http://www.amazon.co.../ref=pd_sim_b_1

this book illustrates what it is like having a depression. it shows some of the symptoms in a way so that people, who actually have depression but don't want to admit it, might recognzie themselves in some of the illustrations and come to terms with their situation.

January 10, 2014

what can i say to a depressed friend? my friend is depresed and i really can't find any empathy for how he feels. i've never felt clinical depression and i feel like anything i say to him is just going to make things worse

ask your friend how he feels and listen to him. there is nothing you can say to him to make him feel better.

after you listened to him some you could suggest getting some professional help. take your friends problem seriously

January 9, 2014

i missed you sufu

January 9, 2014

re depression: last year i have been i a serious bout of depression (on and off for about the last 6 or 7 years without realizing it). i spent 2 months in a clinic and i guess i'm back to a point where i work as a human being (ty cipralex and therapy). for a person who is depressed there is no long term view because everything sucks - the most important thing is to be in the here an now and being able to see that even small steps matter to bring overall happiness and quality of life. reaching that point often takes a LOT of time and guidance through therapy and maybe medication.

if you are having suicidal thoughts and they are taking control of you day to day and you can't get rid of them you should definately speak to a professional about it. sentences like "in the end you won't kill yourself so why worry" are the worst thing you can do imo. that kind of mentality does nothing to lift such dark thoughts from the person who has to deal with them. the most important thing to realize about your situation is that you are not alone with these thoughts. everyone has them from time to time. but if they stick to you then you should defiantely look for professionals who will help you.